#idk . but to reference younger you have to...reference younger. if that makes sense
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"She was a ruthless woman who injured many, myself and my sainted mother included. She was quite capable of playing the King false, I promise you. My advice to you, Sister, is to forget you ever had a mother like that." Elizabeth caught the note of obsessive grievance in Mary's voice. She knew instinctively that it would be unwise to provoke her further by arguing with her. "Forgive me, Sister, but I had heard otherwise," she said simply. "Then you heard wrongly. She had me sent to wait upon you when you were a baby, and she told those that had charge of me to beat me for the little bastard I had become. How could you think such a one innocent?" "I am very sorry for your afflictions, Sister," Elizabeth whispered, aware more of the need to be diplomatic than of the desire to defend her mother. "They were not of my making, nor my desire." "How could you think her innocent?" "I heard things," she answered, then grew a touch defiant. "The whole world does not think my mother guilty."
The Lady Elizabeth [Chapter 8: 1544], Alison Weir
#chose this is as the 'equivalent' scene bcus to me that sort of made sense...#this scene did not really feel...earned?#and a lot of theirs didn't; really.#because elizabeth never really got her moment to counter#with: well. i was an infant when all that happened. what; realistically; do you think i could have done?#also for tudors week i never got around to doing the edit for my favorite tudor rivarly/siblings. i would have picked them#and also elizabeth's turnaround on AB in BE ; the turn from shame to tenderness was never properly...explained?#i wonder if there is a deleted scene somewhere. where someone spoke well of her. idk. given the script it seems unlikely#also 'little bastard' is odd specifically lol. that's what chapuys referred to elizabeth as. not anne towards mary (ac/cursed bastard.#it was specifically her maturity that was the threat. so...)#'younger even. when i was sent to serve you' honestly that scene is infuriating lol#im less a pendant on historical accuracy or 'authenticity' when there is#at least an emotional honesty to the scene but knowing the actual timeline makes it...#very clear that it's emotional manipulation in a way the actual text refused to recognise#maybe it would have by s2. idk!#i do love the acting in the scene tho. how elizabeth flinches from her and mary clings to her. gahhh#it's similar to the body language of theirs in the field#except then mary clings to her angrily
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can you pls do an outsiders x Nerdy fem reader? Like, braces boy band fangirl who rants about comics type. Would rather have it being Curtis sister reader but you can do whatever, tyy <33



Gang w/ a Nerdy!Reader Ëŕ¨ŕ§âď˝ĄË â
The Outsiders x Fem!Reader
ŕ¨ŕ§ : The Curtis gang with a nerdy reader
A/N : This is kinda bad bcs I get unmotivated to write sometimes but I swear Iâm trying omg. Also I didnât do Curtis sister simply so itâd be more ambiguous, sorry đ Anyways this is literally me except I just donât have braces anymore
Ëâşâ§âË đ Ëââ§âşË
Darry
ਠYou cut pics of The Rolling Stones members, etc out of the newspapers he reads and keep them
ਠHeâs confused at first then heâs like âOh..â when he realizes whatâs happening- he doesnât mind tho
ਠYou write the dumbest little notes/pickup lines and put them in his lunch bag for work
ਠHe doesnât understand most of them but he likes them regardless
ਠHe read comics here and there when he was a kid, but he definitely doesnât anymore đ
ਠHeâs always arguing with Pony about those things and just doesnât really get it
ਠEven though he doesnât understand yours and Ponyâs infatuation with stuff like that, he thinks itâs nice youâre able to bond with each other over it
ਠAt some point you convince him to watch one of your favorite sci-fi type tv shows with you whenever he isnât busy
ਠItâs a pipeline of him saying he doesnât like it, pretending he doesnât like it, then being really invested in it
ਠAnyways, even if your interests donât exactly line up, you still love each other
ਠYou rambling over stuff all the time honestly helps him forget about the stress in his life
Two-Bit
ਠHe has no room to talk when his favorite show is still Mickey Mouse at the age of 18 and a half
ਠHe thinks itâs cute in an endearing way
ਠHe makes fun of you a bit but he doesnât mean it seriously- thatâs just how he is
ਠYou guys discuss superheroes together and get way too in depth about it
ਠWhen he sees your room for the first time thereâs like little figurines everywhere, etc and heâs just like âHuh, I have that one tooâ while pointing at the Hulk or something
ਠHe doesnât gaf, at least itâs clean unlike his
ਠIf you have braces, heâs absolutely making jokes about it
ਠYouâre getting called metal mouth but itâs out of love I promise
ਠHe doesnât let other people make jokes about it though
ਠLike thatâs his job!!! Leave his girl alone!!!
ਠThis man defends you with his life Iâm so serious
ਠAnyways, whenever he gets super drunk and he starts rambling the exact same way you do normally so it sort of evens you out
ਠIdk what else to even say because you both just make so much sense- it seems so obvious
Steve
ਠI hate to say it, but he calls you brace-face
ਠIronic because he needs some himself!!! đ
ਠYou said something along those lines to him once and he was so caught off guard and offended
ਠEven though heâs a smartass and youâd figure heâd be mean abt it, I feel like heâs probably kinda the same as you- at least when he was younger
ਠBro knows his DC and Marvel lore
ਠYou guys are constantly re-watching âGodzillaâ together
ਠThereâs probably a picture of him from when he was younger dressed as it for Halloween or something too
ਠYou have made him go to a concert with you
ਠHe didnât even really care about you freaking out over the guys, he was more upset that you chose The Beach Boys of all people
ਠHe considers it âSoc musicâ
ਠYou most likely donât understand anything about cars
ਠHe could sit there for hours trying to explain stuff to you and it just wonât click
ਠHeâs like âHow can you remember every fucking Beach Boys song but not what an exhaust does??â
ਠOkay you probably arenât that dense but still
Dallas
ਠYeahhh, heâs making fun of you
ਠItâs out of love tho đ most of the time..
ਠYou constantly make references about comics and shows and he has no clue what youâre talking about
ਠYou use the word kryptonite around him and heâs like â..What the HELL did you just say to me?â
ਠMost of the things you ramble about, he doesnât understand, like, at all
ਠMuch to his dismay, he canât help his features from softening when he watches you do it
ਠYou definitely gives him a break from all the reckless crazy stuff he does
ਠYou use so many big words (they usually arenât that crazy) and heâs just like âCould you speak English?â
ਠWhen he first went inside your room, it was covered in posters from movies like âDracula,â âCreature from the Black Lagoon,â âPsycho,â âFrankenstein,â âThe Birds,â etc
ਠAt first he was like âJesusâŚâ but really he thought it was pretty cool
ਠYou guys are horror movie enjoyersâď¸
ਠYouâre probably more of a geek over them than he is, but itâs just barely (heâd never admit it)
Soda
ਠYou definitely fangirl over The Beatles and it lowkey hurts his feelings
ਠYou have to be like âSoda.. you literally look like a movie star why are you worried-â
ਠYes you know Paulâs blood type, time of birth, and who his fourth cousin twice removed is; so what? đ
ਠKnowledge-wise you balance each other out
ਠYou have amazing grades in all your classes and heâs dropped out đ¤ but on the other hand, you are not very street smart
ਠLike if you have a gun held to your head, letâs hope theyâll ask you trivia about âThe Twilight Zoneâ for your freedom
ਠAnyways, he tries to keep up with and understand the stuff you talk about
ਠGive him time đ heâs trying
ਠHe probably already knows a bit from having grown up with Pony, but itâs still nothing crazy
ਠHe carries around extra wax for your braces in his pocket in case they ever start hurting you (idk if they were invented yet in the 60âs but letâs pretend)
ਠThrows wrenches and things like that at Steve if he says stuff about you
ਠYou get pretty insecure since heâs so popular with girls and they usually arenât like you; but heâs always reassuring you over it
Johnny
ਠYou guys read comics together
ਠHeâs a spider-man lover and Iâll die on this hill
ਠSomeone write Johnny Cade spider-man au rn
ਠHeâs constantly telling Dallas to âlay offâ when he says stuff about you
ਠFinds your braces cute- he thinks they just add to your charm
ਠAnything that helps him somewhat escape reality, he enjoys; he gladly talks about nerdy stuff with you
ਠHe gets along with Pony so well and he has most of those interests, and itâs the same way with you
ਠYou guys sit in the lot and stargaze constantly; each time you point out and name the constellations along with explaining their backstories
ਠHe listens with a fond smile on his face every time
ਠHe thinks itâs cool youâre able to remember all of that
ਠYouâre both just so cute Iâm crying
ਠWhenever he comes over, he always admires the figures, posters, books, etc you have around your room
Pony
ਠIdc his ass is also a nerd
ਠMaybe not in the exact ways you are, but he definitely still is
ਠYou help him in certain classes heâs not doing well in which he is extremely thankful for
ਠYou guys also read comics together đ
ਠUsually you make him read them out loud though since you love his voice and also think heâs good at the sound effects
ਠThat being said, you both give each other book recommendations
ਠYou guys go to the drive-in/theater together constantly and have heavy debriefings over all of the movies (mainly the sci-fi ones)
ਠYou guys are both big fans of Elvis
ਠHeâs a fan music-wise, youâre a fan of literally everything
ਠYouâve seen every single one of his movies. Multiple times.
ਠDefinitely makes him a little jealous but he tells himself itâs not a big deal
ਠHe canât even be mad at you geeking out when he preforms on TV, he understands
ਠAll that being said, you guys actually go really well together
#the outsiders#the outsiders fanfiction#outsiders#the outsiders imagine#the outsiders x reader#the outsiders x you#curtis gang#curtis gang x reader#darry curtis x reader#darry curtis#darrel curtis#two bit mathews x reader#two bit x reader#two bit mathews#steve randle x reader#steve randle#dallas winston x reader#dallas winston#sodapop curtis x reader#sodapop curtis#sodapop x reader#johnny cade#johnny cade x reader#ponyboy curtis#ponyboy curtis x reader#ponyboy x reader
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Synopsis: You find yourself developing a crush on mischievous soccer player Eita Otoya. The only problem? Eita and relationships donât exactly go hand in hand â which is something youâre only all too aware of, considering he just so happens to be your best friendâs older brother.
BLLK Masterlist | Karasu Version
Pairing: Otoya x Reader
Chapter Word Count: 12.9k
Content Warnings: crack fic, otoya is a red flag letâs not lie to ourselves, heâs lowkey ooc at the end, reader says âi can NOT fix himâ but then accidentally manages to anyways, otoya plays video games but sucks at them, otoyaâs younger sister is given a name (look at that word count LMAO iâm not calling her âotoyaâs younger sisterâ the entire time), std jokes, your honor eita otoya IS a loser
A/N: yes this is based off the song âbest friendâs brotherâ from victorious. yes this is probably the dumbest otoya fic you will ever read (i promise iâve written him better before). yes this is four times longer than it was supposed to be. idk what to say either i just get carried away LMAO
On the first day of your first year of middle school, you were told by your teacher to sit next to an entirely disagreeable looking girl. Her round face was adorned with a scowl, and there was a scrape on the bridge of her nose. She had silvery hair cut in a choppy bob, and blunt bangs streaked with green covered her forehead. When she noticed you staring at her in surprise, she made a face at you.
âWhat do you want?â she said.
âIâm supposed to sit here,â you said. âTeacher said so.â
âWhatever,â she said with a scoff. You gave her an uneasy look as you set your things down beside her, sliding into your chair and watching her out of the corner of your eye. If she noticed, she did not care, gripping her pencil in her hand so hard it was a miracle it did not snap in half, her scowl deepening as she looked over the introduction sheet you all had been given to fill out.Â
âIâm Y/N L/N,â you offered meekly, not wanting to accidentally offend her. She seemed like the kind of girl you really shouldnât mess with, not if you wanted to keep your life and limbs intact.
She glanced at you. âSeiko Otoya.â
âNice to meet you, Otoya,â you said.
âSeiko,â she said firmly. âNobody calls me Otoya âcause I have two older siblings and itâs confusing.â
âAh, but neither of your siblings are here, so it wouldnât be confusing,â you pointed out before you could stop yourself. Seiko gave you an annoyed look.
âSo what? Everyoneâs been calling me Seiko since I can remember, so if you try to get my attention by saying Otoya I wonât realize,â she said. âWhatâs your problem with it?â
âI donât have a problem,â you said, pulling out a pencil of your own and filling out your introduction sheet. Your handwriting was ten times nicer than Seikoâs, you noticed â she had a messy scrawl that was barely legible, especially when compared to your neat print.Â
âThatâs great to hear, L/N,â she said, shoving her arm over her paper so you couldnât look at it any longer. âQuit copying me.â
âOf all the assignments to copy on, do you really think Iâd pick this one? It wouldnât even make sense, since all of the information is about ourselves. See, this one asks about our families,â you said, tapping your eraser against the question you were referring to. âItâs not like I would write that I have two older siblings, because I donât, even though you do.â
Seiko scoffed, puffing her cheeks out and turning back to her work with a pout. âFine.â
You had been hoping that youâd befriend your desk partner, considering you didnât know anyone at the middle school. All of your friends from primary school lived across town from you, so they were attending another middle school, which had the unfortunate effect of leaving you by yourself. Unfortunately, it seemed like you were out of luck when it came to making friends with the girl beside you, because Seiko was surly at best and downright hostile at worst.
When the bell rang to signify the end of the first half of the day as well as the beginning of the lunch break, you all but leapt out of your seat, speed-walking towards the cafeteria as fast as you could, eager to avoid another stiff conversation with Seiko. For her part, she rolled her eyes, taking her own time to gather her things and push in her chair, ignoring you completely all the while.
In your haste, you didnât watch where you were going, and because of your shyly-ducked head, you ran straight into the back of a tall, heavy-set boy.
âWhat is wrong with you?â he snapped, spinning around to face you. He had close-cropped hair and thick brows, a narrow mouth pressed into a taut line, and a pinched, ruddy face.Â
âIâm sorry,â you said immediately.
âYou made me drop my chocolate milk,â he said. âApologize again, and give me money to pay for more!â
âYour chocolate milk is still in your hand,â you said quietly. He glared at you, and then, before you could react, he was unscrewing the cap and pouring its contents all over you.
âLike I said,â he said. âYou made me drop it.â
âWhat â why would you do that?â you sputtered. You had thought that middle school would be much the same as elementary had been, only with different people, but this never wouldâve happened, even just last year. You looked around wildly for a teacher, but there were none; though you were surrounded by laughing peers, you realized that you were alone in this hallway, completely and utterly alone. Everyone was laughing at you and milk was dripping down your once-white shirt and you were alone and things could not get worse.Â
The boy held out his hand. Things got worse. âGimme your lunch money, freak.â
You stared at him blankly, tears welling in your eyes but refusing to fall. He tapped his foot, and slowly, when you understood that you had no choice, you reached into your pocket, fumbling around for the bit of change you had brought with you.
Suddenly, someone slapped your wrist lightly â in reprimand, and not hard enough that it hurt, but so that you were startled and ceased your actions immediately. Looking up, you saw it was Seiko Otoya, looking much the same as she had earlier, though her cheeks bloomed with a rose-colored flush as she jabbed a finger at the boy.
âWho do you think youâre messing with, huh?â she shouted, loudly enough that you were surprised no adults were alarmed. The boyâs eyes widened.
âSeiko?â he said. âI didnât know you wereââ
She let out a challenging war cry and then lunged at him. You gasped as she tackled him to the ground and socked him in the nose, looking entirely ridiculous all the while. It was like watching a chihuahua beat up a mastiff; Seiko was tiny compared to the boy, but vicious, not even giving him a moment to breathe as she rammed her fists into his face, over and over.
âMiss Otoya!â an authoritative voice said, cutting through the brawl. âWhat is the meaning of this?â
Your teacher stood before you, one of your classmates at her side. When Seiko did not move, she yanked her off of the boy, helping him stand and giving Seiko a stern look.
âHe spilled milk on L/N and tried to take her lunch money, so I was just trying to give him a taste of his own medicine,â Seiko said with a shrug.
âYou shouldâve come to me, not taken matters into your own hands,â your teacher said, massaging her temples when she saw the state of your uniform. âDo you have anything to say to this young man?â
Seiko squinted at the boy, his bloody nose and shivering frame, and then she nodded. âYes, maâam.â
âGo on, then,â your teacher said. Seiko placed her hands on her hips.
âIâm sorryââ she began. Your teacher nodded encouragingly. ââthat I didnât hit you harder. You couldâve gotten surgery and fixed that ugly nose of yours if I had actually managed to break it. Iâll do better next time, promise.â
The boy burst into tears. Seiko was sent to detention, giggling all the while. You were given a new uniform and the knowledge that there was at least this one person in the school who was on your side.
It was only natural that, after such an ordeal, you and Seiko ended up as fast friends. Her gruff exterior never softened any, but you found that she was kinder than she let on, and lonely in her own way.
âI learned that move from one of the wrestling matches my older brother likes to watch,â she explained to you a few days later. âIâve been itching to try it out, so thanks for giving me the opportunity.â
âItching to try it out?â you said in wonder, accepting the orange slice she handed you and biting into it.
âYou know, I beat up 95% of the boys in my kindergarten,â she said thoughtfully. Despite the far-fetched number, you were inclined to believe her. âIâm kind of the opposite of my siblings in that sense. Theyâre both super popular, especially my brother Eita, but Iâve never been like that. Iâm the sort of person that people generally stay far away from.â
âWell, Iâm not staying far away from you,â you said.Â
âRight,â she said, cracking her knuckles with a smirk. âWho knows when that guy or his lackeys will come back to take revenge on you? Youâve gotta keep me around for a while, just in case.â
It was the best she could offer in terms of friendship, so you only smiled and said that you would.
You visited her house for the first time the following summer, during that part of the season when the days were long and faded into night so slowly that you could even fall asleep while it was still light out. She invited you in and then immediately tugged you after her, not bothering to offer an explanation, as was her way. You stumbled up the stairs, trying to keep pace as she whipped around a corner and knocked frantically on a shut door.
âWhat?â a muffled voice shouted from inside of the room.Â
âItâs Seiko, open up!â she shouted back. âI have to show you something!â
The door opened to reveal a boy. He was a year or so older than you and Seiko, with a delicate, handsome face and a slender, willowy build. His hair, which boasted the same strange coloring as Seikoâs, fell into low-lidded eyes that narrowed with irritation when they settled upon his younger sister.
âWhat is it?â he said. âI was in the middle of playing a game with my friends.â
âLook,â she said, placing her hands on your shoulders proudly. âYou said you didnât believe I had a friend, but I do, see? This is Y/N L/N, and sheâs here to hang out with me!â
Her brother seemed unimpressed. âDid you have to rough her up a bit or something to get her to agree to it?â
âNo!â Seiko said. âShe actually likes me, right, Y/N?â
âRight,â you said, confused at what kind of argument you had accidentally found yourself in the middle of. âUm, Seikoâs my best friend at school, and sheâs never beaten me up or anything, soâŚâ
âHoly crap, you must be desperate,â he said.
âHey!â Seiko said, kicking him in the shin. He winced and promptly slammed the door on your faces.
âYou suck!â he said. âI have a soccer game tomorrow, so youâre lucky you didnât permanently injure me!â
âI wish I had!â she said. âCome on, Y/N. Heâs a jerk. Letâs go swimming. Did you bring a bathing suit? If not, you can borrow one of mine.â
âI have one,â you said. âWait, so was that your older brother? The one who watches wrestling matches and all?â
âYeah, thatâs Eita. Heâs in the grade ahead of us. I guess you could say weâre closer with each other than with our older sister, since sheâs already finished high school, but to be honest, heâs dumb and mean, so we donât get along very well,â she said.
âI picked up on that,â you said. âHe seriously didnât believe you had any friends?âÂ
âNo!â she said. âI told you back when we first met that he and our sister are super popular and Iâm not, didnât I? The thing is that heâs aware of that, too, and he always teases me for it, so when I told him I actually had made a friend, he acted like I was making it up. Thatâs why I took you to meet him, but he just had to go and be annoying about it! Ugh. I shouldnât have expected anything else.â
âThatâs the worst. Oh, and he plays soccer?â you said. She gave you a strange look.
âMhm, why?â she said.
âDunno,â you said. âJust wondering.â
Even you werenât sure why you were curious about Eita Otoya. Your first interaction with him had hardly been memorable, and if anything you should really despise him for being rude to Seiko. But wasnât it common for siblings to fight? That didnât mean he was a bad person, did it?
Actually, it was irrelevant. You doubted you would see much of him, so no matter the quality of his character, he wasnât someone you needed to be thinking of as anything more than your best friendâs brother. Resolving to push it aside, you spent the rest of the summer with Seiko by their pool, eating popsicles and playing mermaids and getting into splash fights and entirely ignoring whatever signs of her brotherâs existence presented themselves.
In fact, until you and Seiko began high school, your path hardly crossed with Eita Otoyaâs. He was always out with his friends whenever you came over, and the things he preferred to do had such little overlap with yours and Seikoâs interests that it was as if he did not even live in the Otoya household at all. Indeed, you saw more of their older sister, who was already in college, than you did him, and he became nothing but a vague thought in the back of your mind, only considered when you saw a random sock on their kitchen floor or a soccer jersey thrown across the back of the armchair in their living room.
All of this changed when you and Seiko became high schoolers and she joined the swim team. Her practice hours were long and irregular, which meant there were often times that youâd sit around her house, doing homework while you waited for her to come back. Some days she was only five minutes late; others, it was half an hour or more. It was frustrating, but it could not be helped, so you learned quickly that you should bring something to entertain yourself with if you dared to head to the Otoya household on a day she had swimming â which was every day, or so it seemed.
âHey. Youâre L/N, right? Seikoâs friend?â
You were pulled out of writing a history paper by someone speaking to you curiously. When you looked up, you saw that it was Eita Otoya, a brown paper bag in his hands and a friendly smile on his face. He set the bag on the counter and rummaged about in one of their cabinets, pulling out two plates while he gazed at you, waiting for an answer.
âYes, I am,â you said, omitting the fact that you had been coming to his house for years, seeing no merit in bringing it up. âYouâre her older brother.â
âYup,â he said, emptying the contents of the bag onto one of the plates. âI canât believe youâre doing homework at your best friendâs house.â
âShe was supposed to be back half an hour ago, but I think one of her teammates pissed the coach off, so they all got held back again,â you said. âI figured I might as well be productive while I waited for her.â
âSmart,â he said. âWant some?â
He held up the plate filled with churros at you. You furrowed your brow, feeling entirely awkward â this was probably the longest conversation you had ever had with him, and certainly the only one you had had without Seiko present.
âUh, sure,â you said.
âGood choice, these things are delicious,â he said, shaking his head as he heaped a generous portion onto the other plate. Pulling out the chair across from you, he handed you your plate and then sat down with a dreamy exhale. âI swear they put crack in them or something.â
âItâs possible,â you said, debating whether you should close your laptop before deciding you might as well. It wouldnât do for your keyboard to get sticky with cinnamon sugar, and it would probably be rude of you to have it out while he was sitting with you.
You both were quiet for a while â you were too unsure of what to say to him, so you opted for silence, and he was distracted with eating his churros and texting someone on his phone. Maybe you shouldâve kept your laptop open after all.
âSay, L/N,â he said. âIf you were a girlââ
âI am a girl,â you interrupted him, somewhat put-out that he had forgotten that. He rolled his eyes and took another bite out of a churro, chewing and swallowing it before responding.
âObviously,â he said. âYou didnât let me finish. If you were a girl who was dating someone, and they cheated on you, what would you do?â
âYou couldâve just phrased it like âif you were dating someone, and they cheated on you, what would you do?â You didnât have to specify the âif you were a girlâ part,â you muttered. It was a childish thing to be hung up about, but for some reason it really irritated you to think that he thought of you as something other than you really were.
He cocked his head at you, like he was trying to discern whether you were really being serious or not. He mustâve decided that you were, for he chuckled. It was not quite condescending but bordering on it, and it did not improve your mood any.
âAlright, Iâm sorry. Thatâs my bad. Well, if you were dating someone, and they cheated on you, what would you do?â he said.
âIâd be upset and break up with them immediately, duh,â you said.
âWhy?â he said.
âWhat do you mean why?â you said incredulously. âWouldnât you do the same?â
âIâm not sure. No oneâs ever cheated on me before,â he said with an impish grin, leaning over the table and snatching one of the churros off of your plate. âThatâs why I wanted to know what you think.â
âNo oneâs ever cheated on me before, either. Iâve never even dated someone. Thatâs just the kind of thing where you already know what youâd do, though you hope it never happens,â you said.
âYouâve never dated someone? But youâre so pretty,â he said. You coughed, a bit of the churro that you had just swallowed sticking against your throat peculiarly at the compliment, which he had tossed out so casually it was as if he had just been commenting on the weather.
âThanks,â you said. âAnyways, er, like I was saying â like I was saying, I wouldnât stay with a cheater. Not ever.â
âThatâs a shame,â he said, taking your empty plate, stacking it atop his own, and setting both in the sink. Running his hands under a stream of water so that there wasnât any residue left on them, he shook his head. âIt isnât that big of a deal, you know. Like, it doesnât mean anything.â
âDoesnât mean anything?â you said. âOf course it means something. It means you donât have any respect for the person youâre dating, and I wouldnât want to be with someone who doesnât respect me, so why would I stay with someone who cheated? Plus, Iâm sure youâve heard what they all say â once a cheater, always a cheater. If they did it before, theyâll do it again.â
âThatâs not very conducive to a growth mindset,â he said, patting his hands dry on a red-striped dish towel.
âMaybe not,â you said. âBut people who cheat can grow somewhere far away from me.â
âThat sounds like my cue to leave,â he said with a two-fingered salute. âI used to wonder why you were friends with Seiko, but to be honest, I can see it now.â
Before you could ask him what he meant by that, he had left the kitchen, running up to his room, taking the steps two at a time. You were rendered absolutely bewildered, your sugary fingers and your unfinished essay and the two empty plates in the sink serving as the only proof that the conversation had even happened in the first place.
âYour brotherâs really weird,â you said to Seiko when she got back, smelling faintly of chlorine, though you knew she had already showered at the pool. She cringed.
âTell me about it. What did he do this time?â she said, pulling a large sweatshirt on, her hair sticking up every which way afterwards.
âHe gave me churros and asked me what Iâd do if someone cheated on me,â you said. She snorted.
âSounds like him,â she said. âHeâs kind of a serial dater, you see. He doesnât tell me much, mostly because Iâd be seriously grossed out by it, but I wouldnât be surprised if heâs a cheater, too. Seriously, I donât even know how weâre related. Heâs the worst. Iâd tell him to stop if I thought that heâd actually listen to me.â
âOh,â you said.
âDonât be so gloomy,â she said, elbowing you in the side affectionately. âItâs not like youâll ever get with him, so why are you worried? Iâd never let you date a cheater like that. Seriously, if you ever get a boyfriendââ
âIf?â you said.
âYou know what I mean. Anyways, like I was saying, Iâll beat him up if he cheats on you, whoever he might be!â she said, flexing her biceps, which were admittedly impressive, albeit hidden by the puffy sleeves of her sweatshirt.
âWhat if itâs your brother?â you said.Â
âEw, why would it be him?â she said, pretending to gag. âNever date Eita. You deserve way better. Heâs like a walking STD, probably. Just being in the same room with him is enough to give anyone herpes.â
âIt was just a hypothetical question. And also, donât you live with him? Thatâs nasty, do you have herpes, too?â you said. She ran her hands through her hair in a futile attempt to tame it; you reached into your backpack and pulled out a comb, tossing it at her.
âIâm immune because weâre related,â she said. âThey only transfer if you have those kinds of intentions, so youâre safe for now, but Iâm just saying, heâs a genuine health risk to be around. And to answer your question, yeah, Iâd take any opportunity to punch him, so if he cheated on you Iâd go at it doubly hard!â
âThat makes it seem like Iâm more of an excuse for you to mess with your brother than you actually wanting to defend my honor or anything,â you said.
âThereâs a bit of both factoring into the decision,â she admitted. âLetâs stop thinking about it, though. Iâm feeling itchy in places I should not be feeling itchy at just the prospect of you guys being together.â
âI didnât need to know that,â you informed her. She stuck her tongue out at you, and the topic was, in turn, forgotten.
For some reason, though, you found yourself showing up at the Otoyasâ house earlier and earlier. Not enough to draw suspicion, but enough that you almost always had at least a couple of minutes there by yourself. Mr. and Mrs. Otoya had long ago grown accustomed to your presence and treated you more like another daughter than anything, so they didnât find it strange, and Seikoâs older sister had recently moved into her own apartment nearer to her university, so she didnât even realize that it was happening.
In fact, there was only one consequence to this newfound habit of yours: in the many moments before Seiko returned from her practices, you struck up a friendship with her brother, Eita.
Things were awkward at first, you couldnât deny it. He didnât have much interest in you, and in fact it seemed like he only entertained you because it would be even worse if he didnât.Â
âOh, youâre here again,â heâd say if he got back from soccer before Seiko came back from swimming. âNo Seiko?â
âNot yet,â youâd say, a poster board or worksheet or laptop in front of you. âShe should be back in a few minutes. Weâre supposed to finish this project together.â
âI told her she shouldâve picked soccer,â heâd say with a laugh. âWe always finish on time.â
âCool,â youâd say, because how else could you respond? Heâd raise his eyebrows at you, and then, if he felt generous, heâd give you a churro. If not, heâd dart off to his room, mumbling some excuse about having to call one of his friends or something, which you never responded to, because it was mostly unimportant to you.
There wasnât any huge reasoning behind it. Talking to Eita Otoya wasnât particularly stimulating, and though you certainly found him good-looking, you wouldnât go so far as to say you had a crush on him. Mostly, you found him to be a bit of an enigma, and if in figuring him out, you got a few churros out of it, then you supposed it was a fair enough deal, but it wasnât like you were seeking out his company or anything.
Eventually, he seemed to warm to you a bit more, though you were still standoffish, Seikoâs warning ever-present in the back of your mind â the one regarding walking STDs and herpes and whatnot. You never brought it up with him, but that really was the cause of your shyness, not â not anything else. Definitely not anything else. Why would you be shy around him of all people?
âHey, L/N,â heâd say nowadays, greeting you cheerfully and sitting next to you as you did your homework. âHowâre things going?â
âTheyâre good, thank you,â youâd say, scooting away from him inconspicuously. Herpes. STDs. Genuine health risk. Oh, he smells really niceâŚÂ
âIâm doing well myself,â heâd respond, despite the fact that you typically didnât bother with asking. âStill no Seiko?â
âNope,â youâd say with a sigh. âStill no Seiko.â
Heâd wrinkle his nose. âDamn. Sorry to hear it.â
âItâs fine,â youâd say. âSheâll be here soon, and sheâll probably be full of complaints about her coach.â
âIâd stick around until then, but unfortunately, my PC is calling,â heâd say, or heâd give some other such goofy excuse that was obviously designed to pull a laugh out of you and usually did. âSee you around, L/N.â
âLater,â youâd say. âHave fun with your PC.â
It was nice. You wouldnât say you were close with him by any means â definitely not as close as you were with his sister â but the two of you got along. You didnât know much about him, and you doubted he knew much about you, but you both could hold enough of a conversation that you began to actually look forward to spending time with him.
Only because he was oddly funny in his own way, and kind of sweet, too. It had nothing to do with how nice his laugh sounded or how bright his grin was or the way he spoke to you, gently but also mischievously. You didnât even notice these things, not one bit.Â
âY/N!â he said one Saturday, banging into the kitchen excitedly. At some point, you had indeed become Y/N to him, though you couldnât quite place when that shift had occurred. âNo Seiko?â
âSheâs at a meet,â you said. âShe told me sheâd come back once she was done with her races, but she texted me a few minutes ago that her coach is making her stay for the entire thing, and she doesnât know how long itâll take. I thought about going home, but then I thought that, since Iâm already here, I should just wait for her.â
âIâm surprised youâre not doing homework,â he said, hopping onto the counter, a box in his hands, ostensibly filled with churros.
âItâs Saturday,â you pointed out. âI did all of my weekend work yesterday so I could be free today and tomorrow. Seiko and I were supposed to have a movie marathon, so I didnât want to be distracted.â
âSupposed to?â he said, wandering around his kitchen, taking out cutlery and plates with an uncharacteristically serious expression. âWhy wouldnât you be able to?â
âWho knows when sheâll get back? Hopefully, itâs soon, but Iâm sure youâre aware of how random the meet schedules can be, so we might run out of time to have a marathon proper,â you said.
âItâs like I always say,â he said.
âShe shouldâve picked soccer,â you completed for him. âWhat makes you bring that up today?â
âOur matches are timed,â he said. âNo uncertainty there. Look, forget about that for a moment. I walked past this bakery on my way back from soccer practice, and they were having a sale, so I stopped in. I asked Seiko, and she said you like these. Is that true? Because if she was lying, Iâm gonna kill her.â
Instead of churros like you had expected, he was holding a plate of cupcakes, frosted in pastel shades, crystal sprinkles glittering under the ceiling lights. They were beautiful, like little flowers or jewels, and you beamed as he put them on the table and waited for you to speak.
âNo way!â you said. âAre these from that place by the park? Iâve been wanting to go there for ages, but their stuff is so expensive that I could never justify it. I canât believe they had a sale! Thank goodness you happened to walk past. I wouldâve cried if I missed my chance to try their stuff.â
âSo, as a girl, youâre impressed by this?â he said as you unwrapped one of the cupcakes and shoved it in your mouth. You gave him a surprised look, your chin covered in icing, sweet cake filling your cheeks. He suppressed a laugh, handing you a napkin as you rapidly chewed and swallowed.
âWhat dâyou mean?â you said.
âIâm trying something new,â he explained. âBuying flowers is kinda lame nowadays; plus, if I get cupcakes instead, then I can also have some, so itâs a win-win.â
âI see,â you said, dabbing at your face with the napkin.
âI thought Iâd ask for your feedback, since youâre the only girl I talk to regularly. Besides Seiko, obviously, but itâs not like Iâm going to ask my little sister about this kind of stuff,â he said.
âIâd say I was pretty impressed,â you said. âHowever, I would also say you shouldnât mention that you got them on sale.â
âOf course I wouldnât mention that to a girl I was actually interested in,â he said. âI just told you because I knew youâd refuse to eat them otherwise.â
âThatâs true,â you said. âBuying these at full price wouldâve been stupid in any situation, but especially so because itâs not like youâre trying to be nice to me or anything.â
âYou make me sound like a villain,â he complained. âI still got them for you, didnât I? Why does it matter what my reasons were?â
âYour reasons are kind of villainous,â you said. âYou got them for me so I could tell you whether your new strategy for picking up girls was a winner or not.â
âI compensated you for your services!â he said. âWhat kind of villain would do that? By the way, is it? A winner, I mean.â
âI think so, but everyoneâs different. It could work with one person and not another,â you said.
âGood enough for me,â he said, patting you on the head. You paid him no mind â not true, even the lighthearted touch made you feel all squirmy and strange â and pulled out your phone, which had just vibrated with a text.Â
It was Seiko, and you sighed as you read the message. Eita peered over your shoulder and then hummed sympathetically.
âOoh, is that Seiko? Yikes,â he said.
ânow the coach is making us all go to dinner as a team :/ we can have our movie marathon another time?? sorry i made you wait and then stood you up.â
A second later, your phone buzzed again.Â
âi feel like eita LMAO omg pls donât slap me like his last ex did. iâll make it up to you another time PROMISE!!â
You wouldâve laughed, but you felt so discouraged by her earlier text that you could only muster up a half-smile. Eita gasped in offense when he read the second message, drawing back and sticking his nose in the air, folding his arms over his chest.
âI canât believe sheâs airing my business out to you like that,â he said.
âI canât believe you got slapped by your last ex,â you said, though the words lacked the teasing bite that they shouldâve had. He frowned at you.
âAre you just going to go home now?â he said.
âGuess so, since Seiko wonât be back until tonight,â you said. âOh, well. At least I got cupcakes. Iâm sure the girl that you stood up wasnât so lucky.â
âHa, ha, very funny,â he said. âNo, she wasnât.â
âAnd you claimed you werenât a villain,â you said, shaking your head in disappointment. âSee you later. Thanks for the cupcakes.â
He opened his mouth like he was going to say something, but then, just as abruptly, closed it again. You arched a brow at him, but he only smiled at you.
âSee you,â he said, putting the cupcakes back in the box and handing it to you. âTake these.â
âDonât you want them?â you said. He had never given you the extras of anything he had ever bought before, preferring to keep them so he could eat them later that night or for breakfast the next day.Â
âNah, I got them for you, so you should keep them,â he said. âThanks for your help.â
âAnytime,â you said, your fingertips brushing against his as he handed you the box. A burst of static electricity shocked you, and you bit back a hiss as you accepted it from him, not wanting to seem whiny when he hadnât even reacted.
âHold on,â he said as you made your way to the door. âListen, if she stands you up again, Iâll watch the movies with you.â
âReally? Theyâre not your genre, so Iâm sure youâll be bored,â you said.
âYou donât even know what my genre is,â he said.Â
âMaybe not,â you said. âIâll take you up on that, then, so I hope you meant it.â
âI wouldnât have offered if I didnât,â he said.
âYouâre not half-bad, you know,â you said thoughtfully, tucking the box under your arm so you could unlock the front door. âSeiko always calls you mean, but youâre pretty nice.â
âIf she was half as agreeable as you, I wouldnât have to be mean!â he said. âItâs way easier to be nice to you than anyone else, Y/N.â
You werenât sure what he meant by that. What even were you to him? Just his little sisterâs best friend, or something different? Were the two of you genuinely friends, or were you just the girl he asked for help with his stupid relationships that never lasted for longer than a week? Did he like you? Did you like him? No, of course you didnât. This was Eita Otoya. You could never like him, not if you valued your friendship with Seiko or the well-being of your heart. You didnât like him. You didnât, you didnât, you didnât.
âThatâs good,â you said finally. âThanks again.â
âBye,â he said.
âBye,â you said, and with a final look at him, you let the door swing shut and turned towards your home.
The next day, you got up early so that you could make it to the bakery before they ran out of their best wares. Eita hadnât specified how long the sale lasted, and if there was even a chance that it was still ongoing, you wanted to take advantage of it.
Thanks to the odd hour, there wasnât a line outside of the bakery, and you felt confident as you walked into the warm, dough-scented building. It was airy and bright, flowers and sweets in the windowsill, the display cases well-lit and stocked with a multitude of desserts. Plants hung from the ceiling, and the pale wallpaper was covered with floral motifs, small birds perching amongst the blooms. The bakery itself was so beautiful that you almost forgot what you were there for until one of the employees cleared her throat.
âCan I help you, miss?â she said.
âHi!â you said. âA friend of mine mentioned that you were having a sale yesterday. Is that still happening?â
âA sale? We donât do sales here, Iâm afraid. Is it possible that they went somewhere else?â she said.
âNo, he specifically said the place by the park,â you said, furrowing your brow. âAre you sure you didnât happen to have a sale?â
âPositive,â she said. âI was working yesterday, too, so if you describe him, I can let you know if he came or not.â
âHeâs about this tall,â you said, holding up your hand at approximately Eitaâs height. âPlays soccer, silver hair with a green streakââ
âYes! He came in right around lunchtime yesterday and bought cupcakes,â she said. âUm, is he single, by any chance?â
âAs good as,â you said. You had no idea what the state of his romantic life was, but considering how quickly he jumped from girl to girl, there was almost no point in saying that he was taken. âIf he ever comes back, feel free to make a move on him. Heâd probably appreciate it. Moving on, do you mean to say that he got those at full price?â
âHe wouldâve had to,â she said. âLike I said, we donât do sales. Weâre not that kind of establishment.â
âI might faint when you answer this, so please be slow and careful when you do, but how much, exactly, is full price for what he bought?â you said. âOut of curiosity.âÂ
She told you. You did not faint, but it was such an exorbitant number that, for a moment, you really thought you might.
The next Saturday evening, you went to the Otoyasâ with a wad of cash in your hand. Seiko and her parents were away the entire weekend for an invitational meet, but for once, she was not the one you had gone to visit, so this was of little consequence to you.
You rang the doorbell and waited with crossed arms, the humid air oppressive against your skin. According to your weather app, it was going to rain soon, and you pursed your lips at the thought that Eita might not be home and youâd get caught in the downpour with nothing to show for it.
Luckily, the door opened, revealing him standing there in a pair of shorts, his hair still damp and a towel around his neck. You focused very hard on pretending like he was wearing a shirt, even though he was not, and it worked well enough that you could just barely greet him properly.
âY/N? Hey, Iâm sorry you walked all this way, but Seikoâs not home. Did she forget to tell you sheâs gone for the weekend?â he said.
âNo, Iâm here for you,â you said.
âHuh?â he said.
âNot like that! I mean, I went to that bakery, and the girl working there told me they never have sales, which means you paid full price for those cupcakes. Thatâs insane! I canât accept that,â you said.
âSo, what, are you gonna vomit them out at my feet or something? That sounds gross, please donât,â he said.
âIâm paying you back,â you said, extending your hand and offering him the money. âDonât even think about refusing. I already feel horrible.â
âNo way,â he said. âIt was a present. You donât pay people back for presents, thatâs like a faux pas or something. I think. Er, Iâd have to look it up to be certain, but Iâm pretty sure itâs frowned upon.â
âI didnât even do anything present-worthy, so why would you give me one?â you said.
âYeah, you did. You helped me out, remember? Gave me advice and all,â he said.
âThat was hardly worth all of this!â you said. âSeriously, at least take a little bit.â
âNah,â he said. âYou should come inside.â
âFor what?â you said. âSeikoâs not here.â
âTrue, but I feel bad that you walked for nothing, so itâs the least I can do,â he said.
âIt wasnât for nothing. It was to pay you back, which I will do, and after that Iâll go home,â you said.
âDoubt it,â he said. âCome on, itâs going to rain soon. If you get sick and blame me for it, my sister will kill me.â
Reluctantly, you followed him into the kitchen, hyper aware that you both were alone. It had never been like this before; always, someone else had been in the house, whether his mother or father or one of his sisters. You shouldnât have cared that it was just the two of you, but you found that you did. It was as uncomfortable and strange as the turbulent skies and muggy atmosphere, but also pleasant in a way, like the sweet smell of yeast in a bakery or flower petals dusting against the crackled tops of sugar cookies in a windowsill.
âDo you like Super Smash Bros.?â he said, taking the towel and rubbing his head vigorously, giving him the frazzled appearance of a hedgehog, or perhaps an electrocuted cat of the cartoonish variety.
âItâs fun, but Iâm not that good. Seiko usually beats me,â you said.Â
âWe can play, if you want,â he said.Â
âOkay?â you said. âWhy?â
âIâm just trying to think of things that we can do, since youâre here and all,â he said.Â
âWhat were you planning on doing if I didnât come?â you said.
âI was going to go on a date,â he said.Â
âOh! Oh, Iâm sorry, I didnât realize you actually had plans! I should leave so you can get to that,â you said. He waved you off dismissively, already turning the console on and connecting the controllers.
âItâs fine, I already canceled on her. Hopefully she gets the hint. If I have to spell it out to her that Iâm not interested anymore, itâll be annoying,â he said.
The TV flashed with the starting screen, the music blaring as you sat on opposite ends of the couch, remotes in hand. Outside, thunder rumbled ominously, and you thought that you should probably send your location to your parents so that they didnât get worried. While Eita messed with the settings, you did that, receiving affirmative responses from both of them in turn â which made sense, as neither of them knew that Mr. and Mrs. Otoya, along with Seiko, werenât home.
âDo you care what map we use?â he said.
âSeiko and I usually just go random,â you said. âSo whatever you want is fine.â
âRandom is the best,â he said. âEspecially when you get the interactive maps that actively try to kill you. Itâs way more exciting that way.â
âExactly,â you said. Half of yours and Seikoâs matches were decided based on who could adjust to the map faster; sadly for you, this was frequently your best friend, and only very rarely you.Â
âWhat character do you play? I know Seiko likes Palutena, so probably not her, right?â he said.
âI only ever play as girl characters, but my favorite is Zero Suit Samus,â you said, clicking on her and changing her outfit so that it was the burgundy version.
âYou only play as girl characters? Why?â he said.
âItâs the best way to bond with your avatar. If you canât connect with your character, then how can you hope to win?â you said.
âAre you for real?â he said. You maintained a straight face for as long as you could before breaking into laughter.Â
âObviously not. I just like playing as characters I think are pretty, since I donât have much of a chance at winning either way,â you said.
âThat makes sense,â he said. âI play as Sheik. Heâs based off of a ninja, so it makes sense.â
It was your turn to give him a strange look. âWhat?â
âBecause weâre descended from ninjas and all, so I have to stick with the theme. Itâs like the Otoya brand,â he explained.
âI got that part,â you said. âWhat do you mean by he, though? Sheik is a girl.â
He paused right before clicking on Sheik, his eyes wide. âNo way. Heâs obviously a guy.â
âNot so,â you said. âI looked up a list of all female characters in Smash when I was trying to pick a main, and Sheik was on it. Sheâs Princess Zeldaâs alter-ego, apparently.â
âAre you messing with me again?â he said.Â
âNo, not this time,â you said. He mulled this over before shrugging and clicking on the characterâs icon anyways.
âWhatever,â he said. âIâm used to her, so thereâs no point in changing. Besides, it doesnât really matter if sheâs a girl.â
âVery true,â you said. âAlright, Iâm ready whenever you are.â
âBe prepared,â he warned you as he pressed the start button and the screen switched to a countdown. âIâm not going to go easy on you.â
âWasnât expecting you to,â you said. âConsidering how frequently Iâm pummeled by your sister, Iâm used to losing.â
âGood. Get used to it more,â he said, immediately starting off before you could even orient yourself on the map. âBang! Gotcha! You really are bad at this.â
âJust as an aside, the TV makes sound effects, so you donât need to add more of your own,â you said, wrinkling your nose and dodging out of his next attack.
âIt makes it more fun,â he said. âYou should try it. Really helps you get in the zone.â
âHm,â you said. âIâll leave it to you.â
Somehow, you and Eita were actually evenly matched, and during the final round, you knocked his character off of the edge, guarding it until he couldnât hope to recover and fell to his defeat.Â
âYay!â you said as the victory screen showed your character posing. âI havenât won in ages! This is awesome.â
âRematch! You only won because youâre one of those dirty edge guarders!â he said, already setting up the next game.
ââDirty edge guarders?â Thatâs how the game is played,â you said.
âNuh-uh, itâs against the rules,â he said. âIsnât it?â
âNo? There arenât really rules in Smash. How do you not know this? Also, you should really stop saying things when you donât even know if theyâre true,â you said.
âMy older sister would always tell me it was against the rules when we used to play,â he said. You waited for it to dawn on him; when it did, he groaned and facepalmed. âShe was full of shit?â
âIâm afraid you were, in fact, duped,â you said.
âNo wonder she always beat me,â he grumbled. âWhenever I was close to winning, sheâd say whatever I was doing was against the rules.â
âThat would do it,â you said. âI donât mind playing again, though.â
âThis time Iâll beat you for sure,â he said. âNow that I donât have to abide by any bullshit guidelines.â
The two of you got wrapped up in a series of matches, eventually turning on the random character selector as well as the random map selector, refusing to read the tutorials so you were really going into things blind and figuring it out as you went. You had way more fun than you had expected you would, and as the evening went on, any thoughts of feeling self-conscious vanished from your mind. It was just Eita Otoya, after all. He was only your best friendâs older brother, the one who brought you treats and played soccer and sucked at Smash and had a childish sense of humor. There was no reason to feel shy. Well, besides the fact that he had never opted to put a shirt on, but that was a non-issue when your attention was focused solely on the screen.
You werenât sure how many rounds you had gotten through when his phone rang, so shrilly and insistently that he was forced to pause the game and take the call. He didnât leave his spot on the couch, though, which meant you were able to observe him as the girl on the other end began to scream.
âHow could you cancel on me at the last minute?â she said, loud enough that you could hear her, though his phone wasnât on speakerphone.
âIt wasnât that hard,â he said. âI just texted you and said Iâm not going.â
âYouâre such a piece of shit. I thought â I thought everyone was wrong about you, but they werenât. They werenât at all,â she said, her voice cracking.
âIâm sorry if I gave you the impression that they were,â he said. âListen, Iâm kind of in the middle of something right now, so could you hurry up and say what you want to say?â
âDid you ever even like me?â she said.
âYeah, at first,â he said.Â
âNot anymore, though,â she said.
âGuess not,â he said. âSorry.â
âIs that it? Youâre ending things just like that? Didnât it mean anything to you? I bragged to all of my friends about you! You were so sweet, and you even got me cookiesâŚwas it all just a game?â she said.
âIt wasnât a game,â he said. âAs I said, I liked you back then. I wouldnât have done all of that if I didnât.â
âBecause thatâs supposed to make me feel all better,â she said.
âIâm just explaining myself,â he said.
âYouâre the worst. Youâre â just, youâre the worst, ugh!â she said before hanging up. Eita made a face at the phone and then put it facedown on the table beside him, unpausing the game without a wasted moment.
âThey were from the grocery store,â he said after a bit.
âWhat?â you said.
âThe cookies I got her. Grocery store variety,â he said.
âOh. Thatâs kinda shitty,â you said.
âShe seemed pretty happy about them regardless,â he said. âI wasnât about to waste my money when I knew it wouldnât last.â
âYou wasted your money on me,â you pointed out. The corners of his mouth quirked up.
âYouâre Seikoâs best friend. Iâm pretty sure youâre not going anywhere, so itâs not a big deal. Consider it a peace offering for not believing you were real at first,â he said, landing a combo attack on your character.
âThat was ages ago,â you said.
âItâs downright traumatizing for a person when others donât think theyâre real. Fucks up their psyche and whatnot. Acknowledging my mistake was the least I could do,â he said.
âAnother fact you just made up?â you said.
âMaybe,â he said. âWas it plausible?â
âNot in the slightest,â you said.
âI tried,â he said. âWoah, nice one, Y/N.â
You had just hit his character in a series of successive blows, entirely by accident but to devastating effect. He lost his first life, respawning in and jumping back to the offensive.
âWhy do you even do it?â you said, finally vocalizing the question that had been bothering you for almost the entire time that you had known him.
âDo what?â he said.
âDate people, when you know youâre going to break up with them so quickly,â you said. âWhatâs the point?â
âIâm not sure,â he said, the glare of the screen reflecting in his fern-colored irises. âItâs always fun at first. I meet a pretty girl, and I talk her into giving me her number. We go on a date or two, and I think it might actually be different this time, but it never is. By the third or fourth date, Iâm bored beyond belief and dreading going on another. Then we break up and I do it all again.â
âThat sounds exhausting,â you said.
âNear the end, it is,â he said. âBut itâs pretty amusing in the beginning, so I donât see a reason to stop.â
âDo you cheat on your girlfriends?â you said. You knew for sure what he would say, but still, you wanted to hear it from him.
âWhat is this, interview-Eita-day? Yeah, I have in the past, but only a couple of times,â he said. âBoth of them were when the relationships were on their last legs and I couldnât be bothered to care anymore.â
âThatâs callous,â you said. âYou shouldâve just broken up with them.â
âDumping girls is the worst. They get all upset and start crying, and I know I should feel bad because Iâm the reason, but by that point, I just want to go home,â he said. âDo you think Iâm a bad person?â
âA little bit,â you said. âFor the most part, though, I just donât understand. Why do you keep going for people you know youâre going to get tired of?â
âItâs not like I can look in the future and see that Iâm going to end up bored,â he said. âIt just happens. We run out of things to talk about and sit there in silence. It sucks. I wouldnât recommend it.â
âHow does that even happen?â you said. âYou talk all the time with me. I didnât think you were capable of running out of things to say.â
âThatâs different,â he said. âIâm not worried about impressing you â no offense â and youâre funny, plus you like some of the same things as me, so itâs easy to have a conversation with you. Itâs not the case when youâre going out with someone. Youâll understand when you decide to date yourself.â
âDonât the girls you go out with like the same things as you?â you said.
âNot really,â he said. âThey think video games are for losers, and theyâre too scared to go on the rides at amusement parks. Some of them understand soccer, but not to the point that itâs something theyâd want to talk about frequently.â
âMaybe thatâs the problem,â you said. âYouâre only going out with people who you have zero shared interests with. Itâs normal that youâd get bored of them, and that theyâd get bored in return.â
âYouâre thinking too much about it,â he said. âItâs not that deep.â
âThatâs how it works,â you said. âQuite fundamentally, actually. Itâs impossible to build a relationship with someone when you both have nothing in common. In fact, itâs unfair to all involved parties.â
âAre you trying to give me advice?â he said.
âDepends. Will you take it seriously if I do?â you said.
âNot sure. Itâs kind of ridiculous for me to be listening to my little sisterâs friend about this kind of thing,â he said.
âWouldnât be the first time,â you said.
âTrue,â he said. âGo ahead, then.â
âWhat do you even look for when youâre thinking of dating a girl?â you said.
âHow hot she is,â he said. You waited for him to elaborate. He did not.
âThatâs it?â you said.
âPretty much,â he said.
âWhy?â you said.
âWhy not? Isnât physical attraction important?â he said.
âTo a certain extent, yes, but after a while, less and less so,â you said. âHavenât you ever watched any romance movies? âItâs whatâs on the inside that counts.â Physical attraction alone isnât enough in the long term.â
âOkay,â he said slowly. âSo what do you suggest?â
âAre there any girls you genuinely enjoy spending time with? Not romantically, just because you like talking to them, even if theyâre not the prettiest or whatever,â you said.
âI donât really spend time with girls unless Iâm trying to date them. It never works out. They always end up liking me, and besides, it makes my girlfriends mad if Iâm friends with other girls,â he said.Â
âYou seriously have zero female friends,â you deadpanned.
âAnd just how many male friends do you have?â he shot back.
âNone,â you said. âOkay, fair enough.â
âWait, no, I guess weâre friends,â he said. âYeah, youâre cool, Y/N. I mean, youâre pretty as well, but I donât really think about that part much because youâre friends with Seiko.â
âThanks,â you said. âYouâre cool, too.â
âNow what? Youâre a girl, and I like talking to you. Where do I go from there?â he said.
âI was going to say you should try dating one of those girls instead, but obviously thatâs not applicable here,â you said.
âAh,â he said. âOkay.â
âDonât worry, itâs not like Iâm all that unique,â you said, taking advantage of his distraction to win another match. âIt wonât be that hard for you to find someone else that you like hanging out with, and then you can just date them. Hopefully, you wonât get bored with a relationship like that.â
Eita didnât respond. You doubted he knew how to and you were glad for his silence, because you yourself felt embarrassed that you had tried so hard to help him. Since when had you been the kind of girl who wanted so badly to give people guidance? He had his problems, no one could deny that, but why did you care about them? Why did it matter to you if he was happy, or if he grew out of whatever phase he was currently in?
Maybe it was because you knew he could be better. The caricature of him that you heard about, from Seiko and from the rumors around your high school, contrasted so harshly with the Eita Otoya you knew. People loved him because they wanted to be him, to have that effortless and selfish attitude towards life, but you didnât think that very many of them took the time to understand him.
You doubted anyone at school knew that he was horrible at Super Smash Bros., or that he was entirely gullible and liked to make other people laugh. How many of them would find him admirable if they knew of his addiction to churros and diet sodas? He wasnât cool or charming or suave the way he pretended to be. At the end of the day, he was nothing but a dumb boy blessed with a handsome enough mien that had fallen into a crowd which demanded more of him than he honestly shouldâve had to give.
Putting this protectiveness down as a symptom of your friendship with Seiko â of course you cared for her older brother, he was a part of her family and you cared about her, it only made sense â you noticed that there was a lull in the storm. Bidding Eita farewell and shoving the money into his phone case when he was preoccupied with turning the game off, you ran home before it could begin to rain again, blaming your queasiness on the fact that you had not yet eaten dinner and nothing more.
âEitaâs been talking about you a lot,â Seiko said to you at lunch one day, a couple of weeks after the evening you had spent with her brother. Both you and he had mutually agreed not to bring it up, and Seiko was none the wiser, or at least so you had thought.
âWhat do you mean?â you said. She took a sip out of her juice box.
âNothing bad. He just asks me how youâre doing and stuff,â she said.Â
âThatâs not that weird. Whyâd you bring it up?â you said. For a moment, you had thought she meant that he was asking about you for a different reason, but this just sounded like a typical and general concern.
âItâs a little weird. He doesnât typically care about how other people are doing. The other day, he asked me when youâre coming over again, since according to him itâs âbeen a while.â Like heâs keeping track or something!â she said.
âHeâs not wrong. It has been a bit,â you said.
âI know, I know,â she said. âSeasonâs almost over, and then Iâm all yours.â
âYou donât have off-season workouts?â you said.
âFuck off-season workouts,â she said. âIâll skip on the days we plan to hang out. My coach wonât say anything. Iâm the star of the team, so he has to live with it.â
âYouâre the best,â you said.
âAnd youâre trying to change the subject!â she said. âAre the two of you buddy-buddy now or something?â
âOr something,â you said. âWeâve just spoken a few times while I was waiting for you to come back home from practices.â
She narrowed her eyes at you before nodding slowly. âLook, just so you know, I donât mind if youâre friends with him or anything.â
âThatâs good. Iâll keep it in mind,â you said.
âHeâs my brother, after all. I like knowing that my best friend is getting along with my family,â she continued.
âI get along with your family so well that Iâm surprised they havenât started calling me Y/N Otoya yet,â you said.
âBut I want you to be aware of what kind of person he is,â she said with a note of finality. âHe might do something that hurts your feelings.â
âYouâve told me. Many times, actually,â you said.
âAnd I donât want you to stop being friends with me if he does,â she said. âOkay?â
âI wouldnât do that,â you said. âYouâre my best friend in the entire world.â
âYou promise?â she said, in a rare show of vulnerability.
âPromise,â you said. She punched you in the arm, returning back to being the Seiko you knew.
âGood. Then do what you want with him,â she said.
âWhat?â you said.
âJust saying! You deserve better, obviously, but I wonât turn down a chance to have you as my sister-in-law,â she said. âBesides, he knows that if he messes with you, Iâll take your side, so that might be an incentive for him to stay on the straight and narrow.â
âSeiko! Itâs not like that!â you said. âI donât have feelings for him. Heâs your brother.âÂ
âWhatever you say,â she said in a sing-song voice, taking another sip of her juice box, obviously done with the discussion.Â
She knew you better than you knew yourself. That was what happened when a person was best friends with another for years upon years, and that was why she understood even before you did what it was that was brewing between you and her brother, what had been brewing since long before that evening where you had finally noticed a palpable shift in your dynamic.
Exam season began shortly afterwards, so you didnât have the time to go to the Otoyasâ when you were so wrapped up in studying. Then, once exams were finished, Seiko was finally freed from her grueling practice schedule, leaving her to be, as she had said earlier, all yours. This meant that even when you did go to their house, you were solely there to be with her, and so you saw little of Eita, barely speaking to him beyond exchanging pleasantries.
Sometimes you wondered how he was doing. Had he found a girl he actually liked and ended up dating her? How was that relationship going, if so? Or was he still continuing as he had been, chasing whoever he found the most attractive and then running away from them when things inevitably didnât work out? You hoped that that wasnât the case, though you didnât find the former option all that appealing, either. You shouldâve, because it wouldâve meant that he had taken your words to heart, but you didnât. The thought of him dating anyone was wrong and weird and you didnât like it, but because you werenât quite sure why that was, you decided to avoid both the feeling and its cause alike.
Halfway through summer break, on a day when your parents were on a business trip and Seiko was visiting one of her cousins in the city, Eita Otoya showed up on your front porch, knocking on the door furiously until you opened it. He was just about the last person you had expected to be standing there, red in the face and panting for breath, wearing a sweat-soaked jersey, hair sticking to his forehead and a white box in his hands.
âYou look horrible,â you said.
âI ran all of the way here,â he said. âAfter my soccer game.â
âWhat for?â you said.Â
âI havenât seen you in ages,â he said.Â
âI was just at your house the other day,â you said. âJeez, you look like youâre about to pass out. Let me get you some water. You really couldâve walked, you knowâŚâ
He had never been to your house, so he trailed after you dutifully, sitting at the dining table and gulping down the glass of water you offered him within seconds. Taking it back, you refilled it and gave it to him again.
âYou were there for Seiko, not me,â he said.
âSheâs my best friend,â you said. âObviously I was there for her.â
âAnd what am I?â he said.
âNot that,â you said.
âI should be upset, but for some reason, Iâm kind of glad that you said that,â he said. âI donât want to be your friend.â
âRude much?â you said, his words stinging. âIs that all you came here to tell me? If you donât want to be friends, thatâs fine, but was there really a need for you to come to my house and announce it? Howâd you even get my address?â
âSeiko told me,â he said.
âIn hindsight, I shouldâve seen that coming,â you said.
âI havenât dated anyone,â he said, all in a rush, the sentences tumbling out of his mouth like he was not sure if heâd ever get the chance to say them again. âNot since that night that we played video games together.â
âSeriously? If I ask Seiko, will she confirm that?â you said.
âOf course! Iâm a lot of things, I know that, but Iâm not a liar. Iâve never tried to hide who I am, especially not from you,â he said.
âWell,â you said. âThatâs good, then. Iâm proud of you.â
âIâve tried finding the kind of person you described,â he said. âSomeone like you. You said it would be easy, but itâs not. Itâs really fucking difficult.â
âMaybe you should look harder, then,â you said, rolling your eyes and placing his empty cup in the dishwasher before you forgot about it. âThereâs no way Iâm the only girl in the entire city that you can bring yourself to genuinely like.â
âYouâre the only one I want to like,â he said. You froze in the middle of putting dish detergent in the dispenser, giving him an incredulous look.
âIâm what?â you said.
âI get that you probably donât feel the same way. To be honest, I didnât even realize that I did until Seiko yelled at me about it, because itâs not like it usually is. I want to spend time with you, as much as possible, even if weâre not doing anything but eating snacks or playing games. I want to listen to you talk, even if itâs about something that I think is boring. I want to buy things thatâll make you happy â the nice versions, not the kinds from the grocery store, because I donât want to imagine that it wonât last. I want it to last,â he said.
You stared at him, slack-jawed and wide-eyed. Of all the things he couldâve said, that was the most unlikely. What was it about you that made you so different, that the ever-fickle and brutally honest Eita Otoya was driven to such a confession? You knew he wasnât making it up, because he was right â he never did. Not once had he ever tried to mislead a girl about who he was, and you sensed that this was much the same. The problem wasnât that you didnât believe him. It was that you simply couldnât understand.
âI donât get it,â you said.
âWhat do you mean? What else am I supposed to say?â he said. âI like you. I think I have for a while now. At first, I thought it was just because you were my sisterâs friend, but according to her, you normally donât feel this way for the friends of your siblings.â
âYouâve been talking to Seiko about me?â you said. Suddenly, the side comments she had been making recently made a lot more sense.
âWho else would I go to? It was humiliating, asking her for help, but you guys have known each other for forever, so I figured it was the best option,â he said.
âThatâs true,â you said, starting the dishwasher and pushing it shut. âWow. I donât know what to say to that.â
âIf youâre going to reject me, donât worry about it. I didnât tell you all of that because I was expecting you to say yes. I just wanted you to know that â that I did take what you said into consideration,â he said.Â
âIâm glad you did,â you said. âIt mustâve been weird, following the advice of your younger sisterâs best friend.â
âYouâre more than that,â he said. âYouâre more than just Seikoâs friend to me. Youâve been more than that for a long time now.â
âWhy me?â you said. âWhy is it me, and not one of the hundreds of other girls that would jump at the chance to fix you, to be the one who finally got Eita Otoya to settle down for good?â
âItâs that bratty little sister of mineâs fault,â he said. âBecause of her, you kept showing up, and by the time I noticed, it was way too late. At that point, I was already asking her what your favorite desserts were, just so I could get them for you.â
âI see,â you said.
âBesides, being with someone who wants to fix another person sounds awful. Do you want to fix me?â he said.
âIf you expect me to, then you should probably just leave,â you said. âI donât mind helping when I can, but the only person that can fix you is you.â
âExactly,â he said. âYou mentioned once that cheaters can grow somewhere far away from you.â
âHm? Oh, I did say something along those lines, didnât I? That was over a year ago, though,â you said, thinking back to that random conversation, unsure of why he even remembered it.
âIâve done it,â he said. âIt was hard, but Iâve done it anyways. For you, but also for myself. Iâm not so sure that the highs are worth the lows anymore, and besides, I hate doing things I donât like, and dating around is becoming one of those things.â
âIs that so?â you said. âIâm glad you realized that.â
âYeah,â he said. âMe, too. Uh, I should probably go now, soâŚhere. For last time. You shouldnât have paid me back. Donât even think about pulling something like that again.â
He opened the box, revealing an assortment of cookies, all the different kinds you liked. You didnât need to ask him to know where he had gotten them from, and you admired them as he stood and pushed in his chair.
âThanks for hearing me out, Y/N,â he said. âAnd donât worry, I wonât make things uncomfortable, so feel free to visit Seiko whenever. Iâll stay out of your way when you come over. She doesnât have any other friends, so donât ditch her just because of me.â
âYouâre pretty self-important, arenât you?â you teased. âDid you think Iâd give her up just because of you? Not likely. Anyways, why would things be uncomfortable?â
âUsually itâs pretty unpleasant to have to be around someone when you know they have unreciprocated feelings for you,â he said.
âI donât think theyâre unreciprocated,â you said. He quite literally paused in his tracks, foot still raised in the air as he spun to face you.
âWhat? You shouldâve said so earlier!â he said. âDo you mean I was acting all angsty and emotional for nothing?â
âI wanted to make you suffer a bit,â you said. âI mean this gently, but you deserve it.â
He hung his head. âYouâre not wrong.â
âIâve liked you for a while as well, though like you said, I hardly understood it myself, and I didnât have the benefit of Seiko drumming it into my mind â mostly because thatâs not the kind of conversation you really want to have with your best friend about her brother,â you said. âI also knew about your reputation, and no matter how wonderful I found you, I was a little wary, so I never gave it much thought.â
âBut now?â he said.
âI mean, itâs kind of hard to reject a guy who runs to your house with cookies and a dramatic speech about how much he likes you,â you said.
âWhen you put it like that, I sound like a loser,â he said.
âI want you to consider that you play Super Smash Bros. in your free time, and that you are obsessed with anything ninja or Naruto related, and then I would like for you to repeat that statement with the same indignation you just said it with,â you said. He huffed in defeat.
âThatâs fair enough,â he said.
âLike I said, I do like you, but Iâm not in the business of fixing people. The second you start getting bored or wanting to cheat on me, break up with me, and be an adult about it. Donât run away. Just be honest, and for my part, Iâll hold back my tears until youâve left, alright? If you can swear youâll do that, then I donât mind trying,â you said.
âYouâre way too nice to me,â he said.
âI can add in more demands, if youâd like,â you said.
âNow, I didnât say you had to do that,â he said. You chuckled.
âI thought you were really serious about me, though?â you said. âSince you mentioned it, I do have one more condition. Say yes, and Iâll be your girlfriend. Say no, andâŚyou better get back to searching.â
âWhat is it?â he said eagerly, grabbing your hands and holding them in between his own. âIâll do anything.â
âYou have to be the one to tell Seiko,â you said. He paled.
âYou wouldnât,â he said.
âJust did,â you said. He scrunched up his face in thought, obviously imagining his sisterâs reaction. Though she had given both of you her blessings in her own way, there was no doubt in your mind that sheâd give the two of you a hard time â especially him, considering the fact that she already did that without even having a reason to.
âIâll do it, but you have to come along,â he bargained. âSomeone has to nurse me back to health once sheâs through with me. It might as well be you.â
âYouâre in no place to be asking for things,â you said.
âPlease?â he said. âSheâs scary as hell, and Iâm saying this as someone who regularly plays against guys big enough to become pro wrestlers.â
âAlright, alright,â you said. âIâll come with you, and Iâll put bandages on all your bruises.â
He grinned at you. âDeal.â
âDeal,â you said.
âThen I guess youâre my girlfriend now,â he said.
âI guess I am,â you said.
âNice,â he said. âWanna play Mario Kart?â
You snorted. âWhy not?â
So you sat down on the sofa â next to each other this time, not on opposite sides, your head leaning on his shoulder and his thigh pressed against your own â and you did just that.
âSo let me get this straight,â Seiko said. Eita, who had just delivered the news, was attempting to hide behind you, which was a largely ineffective method of disguise. âYou two are officially dating.â
âPretty much,â you said, when it became obvious that Eita was too petrified to respond. It was funny â he talked such a big game when it was just words, and he was the first to make fun of Seiko, but as soon as the prospect of a fight came up, he cowered away, as any smart man would.
âInteresting,â she said. âEita, come here. I just want to say something.â
He shuffled out towards Seiko, head bowed and hands clasped together. âYes?â
âIf you ever hurt even a cell in the bodies of the mites that live on her eyelashesââ
âWhat the fuck?â you said. âThatâs disgusting. Thanks, Seiko, now Iâm going to be scrubbing my eyelashes for the next week.â
âDonât worry about it, everyone has them. Theyâre normal,â Seiko said. âLike I was saying, Eita, if you mess with her, Iâll kill you. Forget about sibling loyalty; it all goes out the door on that day, you hear me?â
âLoud and clear,â he said.
âGood,â she said, nodding in satisfaction. He looked around like he was searching for a camera, obviously in disbelief that she had let him off so easily.
âIs that it?â he said.
âFor now,â she said. âAsk me again in a few months and the answer might change.â
âIâll take it,â he said. âWell, see you later. Letâs go upstairs, Y/N.â
âWhat? Y/N and I have plans to bake together tonight!â Seiko said.
âNo way, weâre watching TV together! Iâm going to make her watch all of Naruto!â he argued. In unison, they both turned to you, waiting for your response, waves of hostility rolling off of them.
âOh, boy,â you said, already feeling a headache coming on. âThis is going to be a lot more annoying than I anticipated.âÂ
#otoya x reader#otoya x y/n#otoya x you#otoya eita#bllk x reader#bllk#blue lock#reader insert#best friendâs brother au#best friendâs brother fic#m1ckeyb3rry writes
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Some things I wanna talk about in new rottmnt comic!!
SPOILERSâźď¸

Triceraton Empire!! So it confirms there are triceratons that survived the Krang (considering we saw a skull of theirs in Technodrome). Also my friend Banjo ( @little-banjo-frog ) mentioned how it probably is a reference to 2012 bounty hunter shark-cyborg!!
Another thing is how it is confirmed its the good future. And Raph has lost one eye and his right arm!! And Mikey lost his hair... in the 20 years that passed.

In the future Draxum and Todd seem to be staying with the family!!

Leo ended up dimension hopping for months! What did he see, where did he go, how did he return home?? (Giggling because i got an au based on that hehe!! This is my favorite fact anyways let's move on)
Also April looks so cool guys...

RENET MENTION!! Mikey and Renet have been working together!! (I'm still wondering why he looks like his bad future self tho djdjsk)

Lil Leo seeing Big Leo!! Idk I think it is silly and cute :D

FRIDA REVEAL

THIS PANEL. We already had seen the pervious page. But this panel: other than their dialogue I love their expressions. Present Leo seems scared (considering what the previous time travel event was about, not a surprise), but also "i can't stay mad at you". He seems to respect/admire his older self. Meanwhile Big Leo looking at him with a smile, softly... That guy doesn't hate his young self. He seems to care for him so much (which considering the plot... yeah makes sense), but it's nice to see his old self being nice with his younger self âĄ

CASEYS BONDING ToT

I FORGOT TO ADD BUT TODD HUGGING PIEBALD DURING SPLINTER'S DEATH!! Did Todd take her under his wings??

Lastly- BROTHER AND SISTER?? Is he talking about Camille- if they met Frida already, the sister would be Camille probably. But who is the brother? Kirby, Slash, or a new character? Also rip Splints :(
What do y'all think??
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#save rottmnt#unpause rottmnt#tmnt 40th anniversary comic spoilers#tmnt 40th anniversary#tmnt comic spoilers#rottmnt spoilers#rottmnt analysis#??#tmnt comic#nighty talky
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I'm so happy seeing people talking on my post about Ciel's shorts (insane sentence but it makes sense in context). This is like a follow-up mega-post responding to the theories and headcanons I received.
@jeroidk wholeheartedly agree with this. Yana just loves to dress him in cunty fashion. I totally see him finding comfort in wearing shorts too, that's such a bittersweet explanation but I see it.
Similarly, @applestorms autism headcanon speaks to me a lot. I see myself in Ciel, from how tired he gets from socialising to not being keen on physical affection, etc. I like this take because it feeds into my 'Ciel is autistic' headcanon that he doesn't technically see a gender for himself; he just is. He doesn't mind the feminine or boyish clothes he wears, just as long as they're comfortable and smart-looking. I could go crazy on this but I do not have the time lmao.
@impulsiveasshole and @devianta left wonderful comments that really got me thinking. I was reminded of a chapter that would have benefited me in the original post lol. Chapter 37 introduces Nina Hopkins, Ciel's personal tailor. Sebastian and Nina have a sort of petty rivalry throughout but we find out that she definitely makes Ciel's clothes for him. (She's Yana's obsessive self-insert, I'm sure, and loves Ouji fashion, which is definitely part of the more literal answer to why Ciel wears shorts.) However, you are right, Sebastian has a large say in what Nina produces for Ciel's wardrobe. While shorts vs. trousers isn't explicitly mentioned, Sebastian shuts down a lot of Nina's avant-garde suggestions. Ciel seems to make no protest either and just lets them debate over style.
(I hate this manga sometimes, please be normal ;-;) Here we see Sebastian indirectly opposing anything that'll make Ciel seem child-like. If he honestly had an issue with this, then why is he still hiring Nina, who "has no interest in anything but girls or boys under 15"? For my sanity, I'm just gonna conclude that this is about her expertise in styles aimed at a younger clientele more than anything else... I believe you could read into this and determine that Sebastian's passivity towards Nina could mean that he uses her preferences to indirectly dress Ciel in clothes that are belittling or demeaning for his status. I really like this idea cus it adds another layer to how Seb, as a demon, can be pretty evil in his efforts to control and groom a contractor.
@bull-shit-suji The Victorian idea of what a child is FASCINATES ME when looking at Black Butler since Ciel's maturity and innocence are pushed to the very edge throughout the story. Reiterating former comments, we're looking at Ciel wanting to reclaim his childhood innocence, Sebastian having potential motives through Nina, as well as Yana's love for the fashion in general. You mention Funtom too, which I totally overlooked. To argue that his wardrobe contradicts his status and personality neglects the fact that he is also the face of a popular toy company. I can't confirm with a manga reference atm, but I'm sure Ciel himself has mentioned that the head of the company being a child is good for business. It wouldn't shock me if he used this marketing as an excuse to hold onto his prepubescence. Super super interesting!!
@annoyingttt made SUCH a good point and I totally agree. I'd say I did mischaracterise Ciel in my original post because he's not self-conscious of being viewed as a child, it's more he doesn't want to appear childish through his actions and mentality. The pride aspect is another amazing take. Completely makes sense now that you say it.
This was fun to compile!! I'm praying the hype dies down (not true) cus I was adding your comments to this as I was writing it lmao. Idk if a big post like this is the way to go for the sake of sharing theories but I love theorising so much and it's always better when more people get in on it.
#black butler#kuroshitsuji#sebastian michaelis#ciel phantomhive#nina hopkins#black butler theory#kuroshitsuji theory#theory
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->đŁđ¤đŠđ: not my favorite chapter but thatâs mainly cause for the life of me i couldnât figure out how i wanted to end this. two main things one i figured out how to make my text smaller (i used to know how but i couldnât remember for the life of me) i think it makes things look nicer but let me know if youâd prefer the larger text. two do we give y/nâs brother a name? i realize im gonna reference him in chapters so it makes sense to name him but also like idk if that takes away from the x reader experience let me know your thoughts on that too :)
Always Where I Need to Be - The Kooks
âBut I always thought I would end up with you eventuallyâ
iâm gonna be so honest the second i walked into 5/3rds and saw you i was scheming like a little freak. then we talked and i learned you werenât just a pretty face, i was gone. iâm not super certain how i got from point a to point iâm in a long distance relationship when i always said iâd never do that to myself, but what i do know is that we owe vlas, and technically, by some form of logical reasoning, my brother, a big thank you
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late october 2023
y/n tugged at her camera strap in a futile attempt to untangle it from the media pass hanging off her neck. while she was grateful for the opportunity to take exclusive photos of the blackhawks practice, she knew alex was just doing her a favor. the vlasicâs and the l/nâs had known each other for years, her older brother and alex playing on the chicago mission together for three years before her brother quit hockey. she was thrilled for alexâs first full season as a hawk but walking in behind him when she felt awkward, like akward enough that it was making her palms sweaty and throat tight.
hockey wasnât really her scene, she knew the game and liked watching the stanley cup finals, but being entangled in playersâ lives didnât excite her.
âcan you at least fake a smile?â alex laughed, giving the younger girl a little shove.
âi would if it didnât smell like hockey boy in here,â she said, raising her camera to snap a picture of alex in his blackhawks hat and teasing grin. âawe, perfect,â she chuckled, âyour mom will love this one,â
alex rolled his eyes at the comment before heading to the locker room. alone, y/n finally took a moment to survey her surroundings, taking in all the blackhawks history on the walls. she brought the camera up to her face to snap a few pictures, not minding her surroundings as much as she should have, when she stumbled into someone.
âfuck, sorry,â she muttered, looking at the strangerâs shoes, black slides, which felt strange for the middle of a chicago autumn, but to each their own. the stranger mumbled something that y/n decided was âitâs fine.â but then she looked up, only to be met with a face she definitely recognized from the media. she knew his first name was connor, and her brother said he was supposed to save chicago, but other than that, he was just some guy to her. just a kid around her age whose last name was escaping her.
hockey was just the sport her brother played, the games she was dragged to growing up, sheâd watch NHL gameâs here and there and occasionally stalk vlasâ highlight reels late at night just to send him screenshots where he looked stupid. she watched rockford games when she had the time, especially to see alex play, and had been to a couple blackhawks game but not recently.
the only reason she even cared now was because of alex, she always supported him even if she really couldnât care less about the team. to her alex was like another brother and hockey was just his job, other than that he was the same person she watched choke on gluten-free spaghetti noodles when he ate too quickly after practice and always gave her hugs when she got overwhelmed. in other words he was just some guy,
âsorry, that was rude,â connor said,
âitâs also my fault, i wasnât really paying attention either.â
y/n picked up on the tension in his voice but couldnât quite place it. he kept stealing quick glances at her face, but his eyes never stayed in the same place for too long, as if he was watching himself . she noticed his hands next: brushing at his hair, then tangling with it at the base of his neck, one going in and out of his pocket, the other picking at his shirt. it didnât matter what it was but there was always some sort of movement. a soft smile crept up on y/n when she saw the subtle flush on his ears, a telltale sign that a person was anxious, a subtle sign that meant she made him anxious.
âi shouldâve been more careful,â she admitted. âhere i am in a place i really have no right to be, only a guest, really, because iâm pretty sure alex only had this idea because he felt bad for not being around over the summer. even though my brother and i both understood he had a lot going on with this whol-,â she cut herself off. âsorry, i was rambling. to be honest with you iâm nervous as hell right now and i talk a lot when iâm nervous. let me start over.â she stuck out her hand, âiâm y/n y/l/n. alex vlasic and my brother are best friends. vlas just let me tag along today to take pictures for a school project.â
she held out her hand to connor, who raised an eyebrow slightly when he realized she was waiting for him to introduce himself.
âum, iâm connor bedard,â he sounded a bit like he was questioning himself or maybe the situation, yet he shook her hand nonetheless.
âoh, youâre supposed to be a hockey prodigy, or something, i was lowkey tuning out my brother when he was telling me about the rookies, so i could be thinking of someone else.â
âno, thatâs probably me,â
y/n chuckled at his sheepishness. if she werenât incredibly intimidated by him, she wouldâve found him adorable. no, instead, she found him extremely attractive and extremely unobtainable.
âwell, if all the guys on the ice look like you, then i just might have to start watching all these games,â she said. the flirting was easy, but where she found the confidence, she had no clue. still, something settled deep in her chest. it was like she knew that she would have him, not that she wanted him, but that somehow, they would end up together. technically, he wasnât her type, or whatever she thought her type was up until this moment, but something about him felt right.
his cheeks flushed little and it was infuriatingly adorable. so she lifted the camera back to her face and snapped a picture, capturing the moment forever.
âsee you around, hockey prodigy connor whatever your last name was.â
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what being pharmony's seventh (favorite) member would be likeâˇă
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-> p1harmony x seventh member! male reader -> can be read as platonic or romantic, i tried keeping it ambiguous and balanced in this aspect
warning : some members refer to you with honorifics (hyung) so if that makes you uncomfortable then ... scadattle idk + i made you in between the hyung line and maknae line (so younger than keeho, theo, and jiung, but older than intak, soul, and jongseob) + not proof read !! i will edit in the morning, im knocking out rnnnn
rating : mushy fluff, some get sentimental but for the most part it's really just
a/n: ive been cooking this one for a long time guys !! also the reader is said to speak english well, but i don't think...that's a huge concern bc...but wanted to make note of that before you read on lol (even though its only mentioned a handful of times) + i want to lowkey make this a series !!! not a continous storyline-esque series, but installments of the same reader with piwon, if that makes sense...
wc : 14k+...idk i guess that each members individual headcanons are ??? 2-3k+ long...anyway....
yoon keeho â the relationship youâd have with keeho would be a mix of how he treats soul and intak. you guys had trained together for a very long, long time, but he still is always looking out for you and has you in the forefront of his mind. he worries about you a lot because you have been putting a lot of pressure on yourself since pre-debut and heâs really perceptive when it comes to you. he doesnât baby you, though, because you guys arenât that different in age, but he does check in with you in his own special ways.
the season of work that was preparing for overseas schedules and tours was always the most gruelling. it was much more demanding than simply promoting domestically since it involved remembering new things like choreography, positioning, and cues, which almost always changed slightly with each stop.
it was late now and there were barely any people left in the building to practice, but you were still working hard in trying to keep up with all the changes. just as you were about to start the music to one of the tracks, the door behind you had opened up and keeho was standing there with a not surprised look on his face.
âi knew youâd be here,â he said simply, âwhy arenât you back to the dorm already?â
âi still need to practice some more, the tour starts soon,â is the simple explanation and keeho hums in understanding, closing the door behind him and pulling out a chair that was nearby. âwhat are you doing here?â
âkeeping you company,â he says quickly, moving over to plug his phone into the wall and then watching you with his arms crossed over his chest, âafter youâre done, we can walk back together too,â
âhow did you know i was in this room?â
â[name], youâre the only one still here it was very easy to find you,â he chuckles, spreading his legs and rubbing his eyes as he got more comfortable in his chair. âwhy do you always have to overdo it when tour is about to start?â
âi just want to make sure i have it down,â you sigh, already knowing the direction this conversation was going.
âokay, then practice for only a couple more minutes and then letâs go home,â he proposes, pointing to the clock in the corner, âitâs way too late and if you really want to make your performance the best, getting good rest is the most important.â
âfine, fine,â you wave him off, going back into positioning and getting ready for the music to start.
you run through the choreography a couple more times without keeho inserting himself, simply watching with tired eyes as you worked. the practicing came to an end about half an hour later and he looked thankful you were finally calling it wraps.
as he waited before, he was scrolling through his phone aimlessly, occasionally filming you without you being aware, and when you stood in front of him to leave, he excitedly locked his phone and cheered.
an arm came around your sweaty neck and shoulders, as well as his hand rubbing your stomach, âour [name] always working so hard,â he compliments, making you fight against his hold â out of uncomfortableness of how the sensation of his skin against your sweaty one felt. but his grip was tight and he even smooshed your cheeks together in his excitement.
âletâs eat some good food at the dorm, for you to recharge,â he comments, turning off the lights on your way out and shutting the door behind you two.
âwhat good food? the leftovers from last week?â
âif thatâs what we have, then thatâs what we have,â he sighs, trying to remember what was in the fridge.
âi can also just make a protein drink for dinner, we can share it,â
he looks at you disgusted before saying, âwe are not having a protein shake for dinner â minus the fact thatâs just not healthy, theyâre disgusting so, no. we will eat the leftovers,â
you laugh at his definitive tone and facial expressions, accepting his proposal and walking out of the building side by side.
â keeho is really sweet and understanding with you, but does tend to put his foot down and become more stern when it regards you and your health habits. he is always the first one to remind you when to take breaks and go easy on yourself, but wonât force you to do anything that he says. if he suggests you take a break, but you donât want to, heâll wait on the sidelines for you to tire out and then guide you back to the dorm. his method of doing this actually proves to be really effective as it leads you to take more breaks because no one is actively forcing them on you which makes them more appealing (if that makes sense).
â heâs also really touchy with you, as he is with all the members. the thing with you is that you really welcome it. youâve understood since you were trainees that one of keehoâs biggest habits is that he loves being in physical contact and close with those he cares about most. and he cares about you very deeply. back when you were still trainees, heâd often find himself sharing your bed with you since he didnât want to be alone and wanted someone to be near. even now after debut, itâs still the same sentiment of: wanting to always have someone in his corner that he can express outward affection with as a means of self-comfort.
â[name], come here,â keeho calls, waving his hand to you in a hither motion with his phone propped up in his other. the entire group was waiting in the green room for their next direction of the music show. but seeing as it was just a waiting time, everyone was doing their own thing. keeho was watching a video on youtube, but wanted someone near as he did so, which is why he called you.
approaching with your own phone in hand, you didnât even look up as you sat beside him and let his arm fall on your shoulders.
âwhat are you watching?â
âi forgot how to get the hidden move, so i have to watch a youtube tutorial,â you complain, an exasperated sigh leaving your lips.
âwah, gamer boy,â he says in english, making you weakly slap his stomach. he doesnât even flinch, merely laughing as he continues to watch whatever was on his own screen. the hand on your shoulder stays in position, occasionally squeezing you for no apparent reason.
simple touches and actions like this summarize the way keeho shows affection with you. sometimes itâs grand actions like a kiss on the cheek (something especially grand when he does it in public settings) or big, tight hugs in private, but either way: keeho is going to be showing affection to you one way or another, public or private.
the setting doesnât really deter him because he feels like, if he wants to show affection with you the place doesnât really matter. even if youâre standing at a fanmeeting and heâs feeling more expressive at that time, he will go over to you and just absolutely smother you. the fans can coo and âawâ all they want, some will probably think itâs purposeful fanservice, but to keeho itâs just him wanting to show you affection.
keeho leans into your ear from his position on your back (he was hugging you from the back) and whispers, âdo you want to go to the cafe afterwards?â making you smile and nod, turning to look at him as you answer.
considering how close he was to you, this made your face inches apart and something that was worthy of fans screaming over. but it didnât faze you two as you casually carried on, âthe one near the dorm? will you buy me the cheese danish?â
keeho chuckles, squeezing your cheeks together and bumping his forehead with yours. he stands upright and slightly backs away from you, âyeah, letâs go,â since that phrase wasnât whispered, the fans were going crazy over the part of the conversation they could hear and their curiousity was high.
âwhere? go where?â
âkeeho, where are you taking [name]?â
âweâre running away together,â keeho jokes, sticking his tongue out as he pretends to drag you away.
âwhere are you going?â
ânowhere!â you say in a sing song voice, obviously teasing the crowd.
the playful banter riles them up, making everyone hyperfocus on you two until one of the other members does something that steals all their attention.
lucky fans that had seen you two at the cafe had went onto social media and teased: âthis is where keeho meant when he said they were running away together, so adorableâ with a picture of you two standing in line, standing close to one another. there was then a selca the fan had taken with the two of you attached beside it, making other p1ece envious of how lucky the girl was.
âwere they are seriously that close the whole time? theyâre so clingy with each other T.Tâ to which the original poster responded, âthey really were â their chemistry is real, guys. the whole reason i recognized them was because i saw them standing in line and thought, wow, keeho also holds onto [name] as tight as this man does. keeho really doesnât want him going anywhere, itâs cute!â
the affection-ridden and patient relationship that keeho and you share is one of the favorite dynamics for p1ece to see since itâs a refreshing one. seeing the two of you be most comfortable with each other, no matter where you are, makes them feel happy to witness such a pure form of trust and adoration.
choi taeyang â theo is a guy thatâs super big on teasing, he makes a lot of jokes based off of teasing and they usually end up with everyone in the room laughing. whatâs something interesting that has been noticed by some staff as well as p1ece is that, taeyang tries especially hard in making people laugh and uplifting the mood when you are there or nearby. there have been many instances of people editing theoâs eyes watching you the moment he makes a joke, an expecting look on his face that gets washed with relief and achievement when he sees that you do end up laughing. taeyang finds that his relationship with you is really, really fun and full of laughter, which he intends to keep that way for as long as possible.
you guys were filming for another installment of your variety show; saessak harmony and you and theo were placed to be on the same team for the âguess the kpop songâ challenge. towels were wrapped around your heads as you continued on playing and eating, at the same time.
theo, keeho, soul, and you were all placed on the same team against jiung, intak, and jongseob. thankfully, keeho was very good at the game and was scoring the majority of your points, allowing the rest of the team to be more relaxed. you were sitting in between soul and theo, watching with a grin as keeho scored another point for your team.
âyah, [name], look,â theo whispers, showing you the egg that was in his hand. you watch in interest, then burst out laughing at his sudden action. it caught the attention of the rest of the group, but you were too busy falling into theoâs neck to even properly notice. he put his arm around you as you laughed together, almost completely collapsing backwards in your laughing fit.
âwhat? what? what?â jiung asked, wanting to know what was so hilarious, as well as everyone else in the group too.
theo was too busy holding onto your body to stop it from hitting the ground to properly answer while you were too occupied with laughing.
âthese two are always interrupting filming,â intak accused, âplease spray them with water as punishment,â he cheekily requested, everyone bursting out in laughter as they saw that the staff had actually sprayed the two of you with the water gun.
now you and theo were a mess on the floor, holding onto each other as you were relentlessly attacked with water from the staff.
âwhat even was so funny?â keeho asked once everyone had settled down more, making you wave off his question and insist on moving on to continue on the challenge.
â taeyang really values spending free time with you, he likes to just be in your presence. even if you guys arenât doing anything particularly interesting, just being with you is enough for him. he doesnât really enjoy going out the most, but he wonât deny going out with you â unless he really isnât up for it. but most of the time, for convenience sake, you two are staying indoors. you two will rest in the same bed together, but not speak a work to one another. and itâs comfortable that way, which he can appreciate. he doesnât always need high energy level atmospheres surrounding him and you really do help calm him down, just by being near so he likes monopolizing on that.
â one of the things that theo has picked up nowadays is learning the guitar. and he has proper lessons with his teacher very often, but the person he wants to show off his newly acquired skills to the most is you. when it comes to things that taeyang is proud of, he likes to show them off to you first. because he knows itâs always a judgement free zone (not that it wouldnât be with the other members, itâs just having you be the only one watching and complimenting him is what he desires most). he loves hearing all the impressed sounds you make and curious questions you ask him, even if he himself is a pretty beginner level player. heâll pretend as if he has all the answers to impress you further.
âplay me your favorite song on the guitar,â you request, sinking into the mini couch that was in the studio.
âi donât know how to yet,â he truthfully admits, plugging the guitar into the amp and rolling the chair closer to you, âiâll play you a snippet of what iâm learning now though, for our solo performance. it sounds pretty,â he comments, looking at you and smiling at the way your eyes lit up at the mention of his solo song.
the strings are strummed lightly and taeyang is depending on no one but himself to not mess up and embarrass himself in front of you. there are a couple of times he mistakes a string for another and strikes it by accident, but each time that happens you donât seem to notice or you ignore it on purpose. he smiles at your amazed expression, finishing the song with a sigh and awaiting your feedback.
âthat was amazing, taeyang,â you compliment, smiling so brightly and genuinely at him that he feels a blush crawl onto his face.
âit wasnât much, but iâve been working hard on it to make it sound perfect,â he admits, making you even more eager in complimenting him.
âit was so good, youâll be in perfect shape by the time the tour starts,â you add in, making him put his hood up as a weak attempt in hiding his face from you. you tease him, putting your hand beneath the hood and affectionately rub the top of his hair. âa true rockstar, huh?â
he weakly swats your hand away, grabbing your wrist after you try evading him and putting it down to rest on his leg.
âi can teach you? itâs really simple, youâll get the hang of it really fast,â he offers, keeping your wrist enclosed in his hand as he rubs the skin gently, âcâmon, let me teach you,â
making the easy decision of accepting, you welcome the guitar into your lap and theo into the seat next to you. for longer than you two realized, you were in the studio by yourselves learning the chords to the song âuntil i found you.â occasionally, he would tease you for your below beginner level guitar skills, but for the most part he wsas genuinely teaching you and hoping youâd learnt his song.
âmaybe we can do a duet on stage,â you joke, but theo doesnât actually seem to mind it. he brushes your hair out of your face and behind your ear, a kind smile on his lips as he nods in agreement.
â theo is really gentle and caring with you, in the physical sense. he doesnât show as much affection as keeho (thatâd be hard), but he does show that he cares and is always looking out for you in other ways. there have been compilations made online of all the subtle things theo does to look out for you and p1ece gush over it constantly. neither of you know of these videos existence, but if theo ever did become aware of it, heâd definitely blush in embarrassment of being found out + seeing his actions be made aware to everyone.
âdid you see the way theo covers the corner of the table? something tells me that if it were anyone else he wouldâve loved to see the member lightly hit their head lollolâ
â âhe always has had a soft spot for [name]â
âhere theo goes again protecting his [name]! so cuteâ
â âthe arm that never leaves [name]âs waist! an infamous and familiar sightâ
âanyone else notice how theo always is closest to [name] when they go anywhere public? like the airport or in overseas schedules, heâs always right next to [name] T.T so cuteâ
â taeyang wants to make you laugh, wants your hardest laughs to be with him and wants to always make you feel the most safe and secure. maybe itâs because you were the first one to truly welcome him to the company when he first became a trainee or for another reason. but in the end, heâs always having his eye on you. heâs very aware and keen when it comes to you, coming first to your defense in any situation as well as being the person to make you laugh the most too. heâs a real sweetheart and gentleman when it comes to you and itâs painfully obvious.
choi jiung â he is someone who is very explicitly proud of you and shows it in all sorts of ways. heâs always grinning so wide whenever you are speaking at public events because heâs that proud, whenever you have a highlight point in a performance, heâs watching you with a giant grin. at their concerts and shows, heâs always hovering around you with a smile and fond look in his eyes. a lot of people have pointed this out too because of how often jiung is caught cheesing at you, but the man cannot and will not ever stop. you two have trained together for a really long time so whenever you stand on your own, he just canât help but think of all those times when you were trainees working hard together and smile at how far everyone has come, but especially you.
the two of you were on a weverse live, sitting down and eating some food the staff had prepared for you. the other members were either occupied or doing their own activities, meaning you and jiung were the only ones that p1ece were going to be seeing today. your seats were close to each other, your thighs underneath the table and out of vision from the camera, were touching and rocking against the other.
âhere, here,â jiung says, bringing a piece of dessert up from the plate and ready to spoon feed it to you. obeying, eyes zeroed in on the treat, you dropped your jaw and closed in around his fork. âitâs good, right?â
you hummed in confirmation, jiung already getting another forkful to feed you again.
âiâm not sure what this is,â you answered, reading the chat and trying to get to as many comments as possible, âbut itâs super yummy,â
âvery light,â jiung adds in, turning to face the camera after feeding you the second piece. he puts his fork down and also commits to reading more comments, âso cute? well, itâs only cute because [name] is cute,â he pinches your cheek, which you allow while staring deadpan at the camera, âour cute [name],â he coos, laughing at the unimpressed expression on your face.
âhe doesnât like being called cute then,â jiung finalizes, dropping his hand from your cheek and holding yours underneath the table.
âbeing called cute is fine, just donât rip my cheeks off while you do,â you scold, pinching his thigh lightly.
âalright, alright,â he appeases, leaning forward and reading more comments, âwhat are you two doing now? just talking and eating, very calm,â he then turns to you, âdo you want to go to the studio?â
you nod, âitâs more comfortable to be set up there,â jiung grabs the stand that the camera was on and hoists it up while you clean up as much as possible before abandoning the room to go to jiungâs private studio.
âp1ece, what have you guys been up to lately? i feel like we havenât talk in a long time,â jiung makes small talk with the fans, who eagerly respond and hope to be noticed by him. he waits by the door for you to join his side, standing sideways as he watches you. âme and [name] have been working hard for you all, there is a lot that we have planned for you all. [name] has been working so hard on his vocals and we honestly will probably work more after we end the live.â he reads the flying comments, before turning to you and smiling to see that you were done cleaning up.
âitâs always fun to work with [name] because he has such a good voice,â jiung compliments, making you wave your hand in dismission. he pets your head rather aggressively, making your head bop up and down as you walk to the studio, âeveryone should compliment [name] right now,â
âthatâs too much!â you exclaim, slapping his hand away and pretending to glare at him.
jiung only grins and moves the camera closer to your face, âisnât he just so cute when he makes that face?â
â jiung values his alone time sooooo much, whenever there is a chance to be alone, he will take it and is content in knowing that all the members respect that precious time for him. but once he has enough of being alone and feels energized, the first person he will look for, is you. itâs cute, how heâll return to the dorms after spending the whole day by himself on his own little adventures, and the first thing that leaves his lips is your name. when you finally do reunite, he will grin so wide his eyes turn into crescents.
jiung looked down at his phone, a small pout on his lips as he typed back.
âdo you need anything while youre in the studio jiji?â
the affectionate nickname warmed his heart and he quickly typed back, not wanting to leave you waiting long.
âno, itâs okay, iâll see u back at the dorm later :)â
âokkk <3 get back safeâ
and that was the end of the conversation.
jiung was so relieved that you were understanding of him and his alone time, it was really something he craved and needed. especially with how hectic the schedules have been, itâs been nothing but work on top of work. and he needed to take personal breathers more often than not. everyone had known each other long enough to not feel offended by his need for personal space, too, which was another big relief.
he spent a couple more hours at the studio, jumping in between personal work and anything regarding their next release. when he was done, he stopped by the 24 hour convenience store and got both him and you a bag of your favorite snacks. he chuckled, walking out of the store knowing that the other members were going to say something about it when theyâd find out. right now, they were definitely already sleeping. you were always the only one awake to greet him when heâd come back, as well as any other member that would come home later than usual.
he stopped to his dorm first, changing into comfortable clothes and freshening up before walking down to yours. it was only a couple of doors down and he entered the pin, trying to keep quiet to not interrupt anyone elseâs sleep. the moment he walked in, he saw you sitting on the couch and watching a random youtube video.
â[name],â he called out to you, his signature toothy grin on his face. seeing you also in your comfortable pajamas made him smile, enjoying the sight of you all cozied up and relaxed.
âwelcome home,â you jokingly greeted, bounding over to him with a smile.
âthank you,â he said quietly, walking over to the kitchen table and putting the snacks down.
âah, you shouldâve told me you were bringing some over, i already brushed my teeth,â you whined, seeing your favorite snack waiting for you. he apologized with a smile on his face, but you werenât seriously annoyed with him so you just waved him off.
âare you sleeping over tonight?â you ask, walking back to the couch with a bottle of water and tapping the empty space near you, âor are you just stopping by?â
âprobably just stopping by,â he shrugs, taking the seat next to you. you hum in response, scratching your eye and fighting back a yawn.
silence soon filled the living room as you kept watching the tv and he mindlessly scrolled on his phone. when he heard you lightly snoring, though, he looked up and smiled at your sleeping form. he set his phone down and carefully got up from the couch to get you more comfortable. he wasnât going to try carrying you to bed, in fear of waking you up. instead, he scooted your torso down to properly rest on the cushions, so you wouldnât wake up with back pain. he adjusted the pillow you were using, as well as the blanket covering you. he tucked it in neatly, brushing your hair aside a couple of times as he was smiling softly at you.
âgoodnight, [name],â he whispered, patting your head before backing away. he picked up his phone from the table and pocketed it, about to be let himself out and go back to his own dorm. he grabbed the remote, ready to turn off the tv, but stopped when he saw what was playing. he almost laughed too loud, covering his mouth as he watched the otters on the screen play in the water.
were you seriously watching otter videos this entire time?
he lowered the volume, deciding to take a seat and understand what the appeal was. he moved your legs to be on top of his lap, gently moving his hand up and down as he was now completely focused on the television.
the next morning, jongseob woke up to jiung resting his head on your hip and practically cuddling your legs as his feet hung off the end of the couch. he just shook his head and walked over to the kitchen, not too unfamiliar with the habit jiung has of sleeping over. he sees the snacks on the kitchen counter, purposely dodges yours and takes what would have been jiungsâ.
other than that, he leaves the two of you to be alone, going back to his own room to rest in bed for a little longer.
â whenever you go out overseas for tour or any other activities, he prefers to spend the free time with you. unfortunately, everyone else also wants to spend time with you, so the compromise is late nights are reserved for the two of you. whether itâs just a quick walk around the block or standing out on the balcony together, jiung likes to explore new places with you, and talk about them. he doesnât like getting overtly sentimental, so the conversations are usually mindless and comfortable. but internally, he thinks about how grateful he is to have you as such a close companion. as his journey as a trainee, you have probably known him the longest, with intak as a close runner up. he thinks that getting to see new sights and places with you is a true blessing and he hopes the two of you never let this tradition of exploring together go away. itâs something he really looks forward to every time youâre overseas.
â jiung tends to get really competitive when it comes to playing games or anything else remotely team based, usually as seen on their variety shows. but if youâre on the same team as him or the one guilty of ruining his chances of winning, he tries to keep that part of himself in check. the reason is because heâs worried of possibly scaring you or just turning you off from his behavior. now, youâve seen him get competitive â duh, youâve known each other for so long and itâs honestly funny to see him get so invested in a simple, childish game. but never has this behavior been targeted to you. and thatâs purposeful. he doesnât want to yell at you, ever, even if itâs just in a game setting where everyone is laughing and having a good time. it just rubs him off the wrong way. every time he thinks of the possibility of him yelling at or raising his voice at you, it leaves a sour taste on his tongue.
âwhat?! wait! wait! wait! wait! heâs blocking me from getting the cards!â jiung shouts, unsure of whoâs hand was in his way â so focused in on the game that he was tunnel visioning on what he needed to do in order to win. the game was intense, everyone was huddled around in a circle and trying their best to empty their hands out into each individual pile. but jiung had run into an obstacle when he was almost done and it was someone elseâs hand getting in his way and leaving him behind in a two second time difference.
âblitz! i have no cards left!â keeho announces, doing a victory dance where he sat as he leaves the rest of you in sour moods at losing the round.
âcâmon! who was blocking me?! seriously! i was so close to getting blitz!â jiung shouts, scanning his eyes over everyone with a fiery look in his eyes as he tries to fish out who it was. but then you shoot your hand up and bashfully smile.
âsorry, jiji, i didnât mean toâŚâ your voice is trailing off, sensing how angry he was and awkwardly trying to save face.
but the moment he saw how meek you had gotten, he took a couple seconds to just breathe and calm down. everyone was waiting for him to explode, which he usually does and then quickly gets over a couple seconds after, but to their surprise, he just waved his hand.
âitâs okay, itâs okay, letâs keep going,â he says, collecting his cards and already getting set up, âbut if it happens again, iâll seriously-â
âit wonât, it wonât,â sensing his teasing tone, you donât take his threat that serious and only smile and laugh it off as you also get ready for the next round.
everyone else just watches with confused and semi-annoyed looks on their face as you prove immune to jiungâs competitive rage. what a lucky guy you were, they all thought, remembering their own individual instances of jiungâs anger. at least once, everyone has experienced it. and it really isnât that terrifying, but it was always a hassle of defending ones self against jiungâs stubbornness and bitterness.
but as the two of you just casually talked and smiled about the game, they just sigh and move on, not wanting to complain and ruin the atmosphere.
â jiung, who smiles the widest when youâre nearby. seeing you is enough to get him grinning, but there are certain things you do that he absolutely loves. when youâre focused on dance practice and you just tunnel vision on the instructor and show pure determination, heâs smiling to himself and whispering something to another member or idle camera about your hard efforts and how amazing you were. when you guys are filming for variety content for p1ece, and you spend time talking to the camera â giving special attention to the viewers, he smiles at how mindful and thoughtful you are. at concerts, when youâre free to interact with the crowd as much as you want and not have to worry about choreo, heâll sometimes catch you doing something slightly embarrassing just to entertain p1ece and that leaves him with the biggest grin known to man. fully â:Dâ with his eyes crinkling and turning into crescents. next thing you know, you have jiung running over to you with his loud laughter and slapping your back repeatedly. when youâre in the studio, recording, and heâs in charge of directing you, heâs always smiling each time you look at him for feedback while youâre in the booth. no matter what he says, whether it be constructive criticism or words of affirmation, heâs delivering them with a kind, patient smile and loving look in his eyes.
â jiung just naturally sees the best in you. he always thinks highly of you and wishes everyone to do the same, treasuring you so much. itâs a mix of him verbally telling you this and him conveying his thoughts through emotions. heâs not the most affectionate, but he still has his own special ways of making you understand right where his heart lies with you (cough completely enamored by you cough). he is a happy guy as long as youâre near and he hopes that you also see him the same way, eager to make you joyful as well as comfortable. sometimes heâs obnoxiously annoying in singing praises your way, but he canât help it! he just wants everyone to see you the way he sees you! aka the best.
hwang intak â the first member that is younger than you!! youâre the defining member that is smack dab in the middle of p1harmony in terms of age. one year younger than jiung, theo, and keeho, and one year older than intak, and three years older than soul and jongseob. but a one year difference isnât the biggest deal in the world, which intak agrees with on most days, but on others, he completely flips opinions and its obvious. what that means is that: some days, intak will be eager to have casual conversation with you, craving that relationship thatâs foundation is based on seeing one another equally, instead of a strict, formal type of dynamic. while on some other days, intak succumbs to wanting to completely rely on you as his hyung and, not baby him, but pay special attention to him.
â intak likes to involve you in every aspect of his life. there isnât a secret that he can keep from you, not that he would want to. but he just has a habit of letting you into every detail, routine, and habit of his. itâs basically the definition of sharing is caring â but with everything. he truly does think itâs only right for him to share everything with you :â( heâs so sweet ill cry.
âhyung, do you need a pair of underwear? these just came out of the wash, theyâre still warm!â
âno, thank you, tak, i have enoughâŚ?â
he asked the question out of nowhere and was completely unprompted in asking if you wanted a pair of his underwear.
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âwait, can you tell me what you think of this choreo? letâs go after lunch?â
âsure, make sure you eat well if youâre going to be dancing a lot later, too,â
âyes, hyung,â he says with the cutest smile on his face, taking a huge bite of his food.
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the whole group was waiting backstage for directions on when to go up on stage with the staff all bustling around them. they were doing last minute checks on everything to make sure it was working well, while the members were all trying to calm down and not get too nervous.
intakâs form of doing this is scrolling on his phone, before a staff member has to take it away for when they go up on stage, and watching any funny video that pops up on his feed. when he finds a particularly funny one, the first person he thinks of showing is you. he walks over to where you were talking with one of the stage managers, waiting (im)patiently with a smile on his face.
âwhatâs up, tak?â you ask, smiling at him, knowing that he probably had something on his phone to show you.
âwatch this, please,â he says, trying to hold in his laughter as he thinks of the video he was showing you. he shoves the phone screen closer to your face and in a couple of seconds, you both are breaking out in laughter at the video.
â[name]! intak! come on, weâre gonna huddle,â keeho calls out to you, an unimpressed look on his face as he sees you two semi-goofing off.
a staff comes by swiftly and takes intakâs phone, allowing you two to join the rest of the group in the circle.
â intak always!!! matching your energy. heâll always always always be there to match you and whatever mood youâre in, especially if he notices that no one else is keeping up with you. he always loves to do this because it makes you end up laughing so hard and/or having the most fun. he likes having those special moments with you because they feel like itâs just the two of you in the room.
it was a gruelling day of practice. everyone was scattered around the room, whether it be on the floor sprawled out like a star or on the chairs lining the corner, slumped over trying to catch their breath. everyone was tired and it was even more tiresome knowing that there was still a couple more hours of practice you all needed to commit to before being allowed to go home.
you were taking in the sight of everyoneâs exhaustion, breathing heavily as you tried to think of ideas on how to boost their energy. it was currently that ten minute period where everyone could rest and catch their breath before the choreographers would get back to strict practice. and knowing that the time was almost up, you connected your phone to the surround speakers and played an energetic song.
âcâmon guys! only a couple more hours of practice!â you cheered, trying to get them optimistic, but the âcouple more hoursâ part easily killed any type of optimism that could be in the room. you jumped to the beat of the music, trying to infect them with the same feeling, but they were all just looking at you unimpressed.
â[name], donât strain yourself too much, we still have to dance more!â jiung tiredly said, waving his hand as if to bring you towards him, to hopefully calm you down. but you just shook your head, belting out the song lyrics that were playing and continuing to jump around.
in a couple of seconds, intak was joining you, head banging to the music and running around the room with you. he appreciates you trying to uplift everyone and didnât want your efforts to go completely ignored and to waste. he starts joining in on your singing, purposefully off key, and laughing as you do when you hear how awful he sounded.
âhow do they have so much energyâŚâ theo sighs, looking at the two of you and just feeling even more exhausted.
the members are all silent as they watch you two goof off for the next couple of minutes, wishing they could join in on your guysâ fun, but feeling way too tired physically.
meanwhile, you and intak are running around the room and laughing your hearts off as the song continues on blaring through the room. the only reason you guys stop is due to the instructor cutting off the music and calling for practice to resume.
you two are panting and you appreciatively pinch his cheeks with how he kept up with you and your antics.
â another funny, unique thing intak likes to do with you is always interacting with p1ece with you. whether it be through weverse lives, at fansigns where he milks fanservice with you for them, or in any other form, he just likes displaying the close relationship you guys have with each other to p1ece. itâs almost as if heâs flexing â how comfortable and in-sync the two of you are with each other, how easily he understands you without you even having to say anything. they love it, anyway, and he loves to do it, so it really doesnât hurt anyone.
intak walks over to you as you try putting on a costume that someone had gifted you. it was a simple outfit that you think was supposed to mimic turtwig, which p1ece knew as your favorite pokemon. there was a headband with a sprout, which was your representative emoji, and cute cloth shell that mimicked the pokemonâs that was supposed to be worn around your shoulders.
âthis is cute,â intak comments, smiling at the costume with a fond look in his eyes. then suddenly, his eyes lit up and he reached further into the box and brought out a pokeball with a proud smile on his face, âhurry up and put it on so i can catch you,â
you laugh at his childish demand, but obey to play along with him. p1ece were watching and aweing at the scene, finding it to be wholesome with how excited intak was to act as a pokemon trainer and you as a turtwig.
when you were just finished putting on the costume, intak suddenly threw the ball in your direction â nailing you right in the face, and causing you to stumble backwards at the sudden impact. p1ece all gasped in shock while the other members began laughing, jiung and theo falling to their knees as you rubbed your cheek.
âwhat pokemon is gonna let such a rough trainer catch them?!â you joke, smacking intakâs hand away as he tried helping you up â the man himself laughing at the way he had unintentionally injured you.
âiâm sorry, sorry,â he says, but with how hard he was laughing it didnât seem as though he was that sorry, âplease, hyung, it was an accident, it was supposed to hit your chest! i swear!â
âwhatever, whatever,â you rub your cheek, that wasnât even hurting honetly, and shoot him a joking glare.
then, once again â out of nowhere, he grabs the other side of your cheek and pulls you towards him, planting a wet and sloppy kiss on your cheek. instantly, the flashes of the cameras are going off to capture the impromptu moment. you recoil simply because of the wet sensation and rub your cheek, a grimace on your face.
the others break out into another fit of laughter while intak childishly pouts at you, using terrible aegyo to beg for forgiveness. itâs obviously all an act, as well as an excuse to make you laugh, and it works because youâre both forgiving him and laughing with him in the next couple seconds.
âyouâre such a bad trainer,â you comment into the microphone, looking to p1ece with an incredulous look on your face, âheâs the only one that can pull something like that off, seriously. because i know intak just wanted to make everyone laugh, so iâll let it slide. the others donât have good intentions like that!â
âwhat?!â keeho exclaims, exaggerating his offense at your comment while everyone in the room breaks out in laughter.
âyouâre saying we donât have good intentions or something?!â theo joins in, crossing his arms over his chest, âcâmere, let me throw the pokeball at your face too, to prove my good intentions!â
âsee! thatâs what iâm talking about guys!â you shout, running around the small stage to dodge theoâs reeled back arm that was now holding the same pokeball that had hit you in the face earlier.
all the while, intak is grinning ear to ear so hard his cheeks almost hurt, watching you with an obvious content look on his face.
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âitâs onlyâŚâ intak checks his phone that was on the table, then looks back up at the camera, â10PM, not that late,â
heâs by himself in the dance practice room, stretching in front of the camera as he watches the comments all roll in.
ââintak, whatâs your lockscreen?â how did you guys even see my lockscreen?â he laughs at the random question, playing with his phone in his lap, âoh, you just want to know?â he looks at the screen, deciding that it wasnât even that bad to show. and the photo itself made him smile anyway, so he wanted to share it with p1ece for that reason as well.
âitâs a photo of me and [name]-hyung,â he says, turning the phone around and showing it to the camera, âi change it a lot, though, but this was from when we went out recently, late at night. there was a cool mirror, so we took a photo. and i liked it, so i use it as my lockscreen and homescreen,â
it was the type of âfish-eyeâ mirrors that were in conveinces stores so that the owner can see the entire store. the photo was a simple mirror selfie with you squeezing intakâs cheeks together as he took the photo, a smile on each of your faces.
ââso cuteâ, yes, we are, hyung is,â he laughs, turning his phone off and setting it aside, ââwhatâs his lockscreen?â i donât knowâŚi donât really look at it, but i think itâs just a picture of all of us, i think of our hands? iâm not sure, iâll ask him when i see him and then let you guys know,â he smiles as he sees the comments affectionately talking about you two, mainly about how cute the photo was.
ââwhatâs your contact name for [name]?â ah, didnât he make the tiktok about it recently? itâs still the same as it was then, just âbest hyung.ââŚwhat? why? whyâs everyone saying that i should change it? change it to what?â he opens his phone and opens the messager app, scrolling up and down your contact information, âi think itâs cute though? he likes it too,â
he waits to see what people suggest, making an âoâ with his mouth as he continued reading, âoh, make it cuter or add an emoji? thatâs what you guys meant! thatâs not that bad of an idea, but i donât know what iâd putâŚnot a sprout, jongseobie already has that for him. how aboutâŚâ
intak spends the next couple minutes rambling about you as well as answering any questions p1ece had about you, such as your whereabouts and what you were up to nowadays. intak is definitely the guy that would air out all your business to everyone, but in a fond, respectable way. obviously, he doesnât tell them overly personal information or things he knows you wouldnât want anyone knowing, itâs more-so, just the silly little things that he tells them.
â quick to take your side if there is ever a disagreement or fight that breaks out in the group. fights are common, but for little trivial things (you guys are bound to squabble every now and then, itâs inevitable). and intak doesnât really mean to take your side, to show bias and favoritism, itâs just he has a really strong sense of loyalty and he always feels that same feeling from you, so he just reciprocates it. that loyalty of his makes him one of your reliable support systems and a trustworthy person to have if time ever get rough.
it was a pretty small thing to fight about, but everyoneâs emotions were amped up because of recently stressful times. nothing harmful was exchanged between you and keeho when you were fighting, but you two did need some space to recollect and approach the situation with clearer minds.
you stormed out of the dorm, keeho staying behind and locking himself in his room. the members watched with wide eyes, sighing as they left the matter alone to not get too involved. besides, you and keeho were grown men that could talk this out when you were ready to, you didnât need to be forced to apologize to each other, like you were kids or something.
and intak agrees with that. but he is concerned on where you would storm off to so late at night. which is why he ran after you, grabbing yours and his coat on his way out. thankfully, you didnât get too far before he caught up with you. the walk to an empty park nearby was silent, intak knowing that he shouldnât pester you for small chat as you were definitely not in the mood for it right now.
instead, he took a silent stance next to you as you gently swung back and forth on the swing seat.
âitâs just!â you suddenly exclaim, âwe are all high strung right now, weâre all tired! i wish i had more control of how i handled the situation, but i just canât always be so hyper aware of everything going on around me.â you sighed, hanging your head low as intak lent you an ear to listen to all of your worries. âi should go back and apologize,â
âhold on, letâs just stay here a little while longer. the both of you might need some space, even if itâs just for a couple more minutes,â intak says, speaking softly and gently. you understand where heâs coming from and, thankfully, agree, settling back onto the swing set.
âthanks for coming after me intak, you didnât have to, i wouldâve been fine,â you say quietly, reaching out and squeezing his hand in yours.
âitâs alright, i was just worried something might have happened if you were alone,â he explains, crouching down to take a seat on the mulch beside you, âare you feeling better?â
âyeah, i think i feel even better knowing that you were here, though. seriously, you didnât have to,â
âi wanted to, though,â he shrugs, not finding it a big deal and thinking about how he would 100% run after you again if a similar situation ever arises in the future, âiâll always be here, okay? so will everyone else,â
that makes you fondly pet his hair down as a soft thank you escapes your lips, again. intakâs heart is the kindest and his approach of tending to you and the members makes that obvious.
â intak who is extremely sensitive to your mood and energy because heâs known you for so long, the shifts of mood donât catch him off guard. heâs rather in tune with them, as if theyâre his own. and he likes to brag about this special connection that you two have, calling it the utmost unique one in the entire group. he makes it obvious to p1ece that he feels this way too, not shy in staking âclaimâ of being the person who knows you the best in the group. intak who would easily follow you to the ends of the earth because he trusts you that much and knows that if you two are in it together, it wonât be that bad. he just needs you and some good energy and heâll be content for the rest of his life.
haku shota â (okay prefacing i have an extremely soft spot for seobsoul as the youngests in piwon and it will most definitely show in these hcs so please beware!!!) now thatâs out of the way, youâre someone that soul can trust completely. he has the most trust and faith and abundance of love for you, he will easily follow whatever you say because he believes that youâd never lead him âastray.â he trusts you that much. is always looking at you for some sort of approval or confirmation before doing anything, especially when you guys first debuted. you were like a guiding light to him, and continue to be, when he was literally dropped into a foreign country with no guardian type of figure.
âtheyâre free?â shota asks intak, who was standing beside him. they were waiting at the front desk of the restaurant, waiting for the other members to come back from the bathroom. and as they were waiting, they noticed that there was a small basket of what seemed to be mints, as well as a sign above them. but since it was written in english, shota couldnât properly decipher what it said. âwhereâs hyung?â
âstill in the bathroom,â intak pouts, looking at the mints longingly.
âis there anything i can help you with?â the hostess asks, noticing their gazes set on the basket, smiling softly at them.
to not embarrass themselves, intak and shota simply shake their heads and step away, offering her a weak smile.
âyou guys look so awkward,â your voice calls out to them, offering the lady a smile as you pass by before joining intak and shota, âwhatâs up with those looks on your faces?â
you find it comical how theyâre standing like lost school boys, but your laughter is cut off when shota suddenly grabs ahold of your hand and squeezes tight. âhuh? what is it?â
âare those candies for us to take?â he asks quietly, and although heâs speaking korean, itâs as if heâs scared the hostess is secretly bilingual and can understand what heâs saying. you read the mini sign and nod you head in confirmation.
âitâs say, please take one â so yeah, theyâre free and for the guests after eating. you want one?â you ask politely, smiling as he nods immediately, intak speaking up behind him and wanting one for himself too. you walk up to the woman, smile at her again and try to not make it a big deal that youâre taking a handful of mints.
the other members would probably want ones for themselves too, was your logic. when you walked back to intak and shota, their eyes were sparkling as they saw the many mints in your palm. intak took it immediately and popped one in his mouth while shota just hummed in delight and sucked on it.
âthank you, hyung,â soul says, smiling as he grabs your free hand and swings it back and forth.
âof course, shota,â you say, ruffling his hair and then stepping off to the side to not be in anyoneâs way as you wait for the other members.
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âis it okay?â is a line shota says often with his eyes marked on you, making it obvious heâs seeking your approval for something. it was something that started when he was first a trainee with you guys, when he needed someone to guide him through a lot of things, and it has become a harmless habit ever since.
youâd never scold him for relying on you, in fact shota thinks you welcomed that part of his behavior with open arms, which he appreciates. youâre a really big comfort to him, your mere presence next to him helps calm him down.
â he will be really affectionate with you, similiar to keeho. just think about this manâs relationship with keeho, too!! like theyâre attached to the hip. he claims the affection he shows you has a different intention when compared to keeho, but you donât notice because: to you, affection is affection and itâs always welcome !! shota sometimes canât express in words how much love and appreciation he has for you, or he is too lazy to or it just isnât appropriate, so instead heâll show it through actions.
âso, today, iâm working in the studio â as you can obviously see!â youâre on weverse live and it just started a couple minutes ago, so you were giving p1ece the update on what you were doing, âi donât know what the other members are doing, but i thinkââ
your cut off when the door behind you opens out of nowhere and itâs a shota staring at you. heâs grinning ear to ear, but you wouldnât know since heâs wearing a mask on his face. he steps forward, not paying attention to the camera propped up on your desk and only focusing in on you.
âah, shota, say hi to p1ece,â he hums in response, making a random grunting noise as he stops by your side, making you laugh at his odd behavior. he grabs your cheeks with both his hands, smooshing your face together which only prompted more laughter from you. then heâs leaning down and pressing his lips to your forehead, the sensation odd due to the mask in between you two.
but you receive it nonetheless, thanking him loudly with laughter as he pulls away. he smiles, moving close once more to kiss scarily close to your mouth, right on the corner of your lips, but once again the barrier of the mask acts as the last resort safe guard.
âwow, that was close, shota,â you say, surprised at his bold behavior, âshota is extra confident today,â you say to the camera this time, laughing as you read the comments that were freaking out about the surprise kiss, ââdid he kiss me?â yeah, riiight here,â you point to the corner of your mouth, which is now stretched into a smile, âplus, he was wearing a mask,â
shota stands behind you, now playing with the ends of your hair and listening to what you were saying every now and then.
ââ[name] wasnât even surprised lollolâ no, because he does this all the time. sho is very affectionate, guys, really touchy,â he smiles under his mask and decide that heâs going to leave, to not intrude too much on your own live.
you look behind and see him pointing to the door, nodding in understanding, âyouâre going straight to the dorm or to practice?â he grunts, making hand gestures which you interpret as him saying he was going to practice.
âokay, donât stay out for too long, itâs already late, too,â you advise, shooting him a pointed look.
he nods vigorously, saluting to you as well. you laugh and mimic him, but in a less enthusiastic way.
before he leaves, he throws a peace sign to the camera and plants one more kiss onto your cheek, then forcing your hood on top of your head and slamming the door behind him. the live chat is saying how hectic those past three seconds were, but you just fondly smile and agree.
âbut heâs always like that, so itâs not that surprising, everyone. thatâs just regular soul,â you say, a genuine smile on your face as you pay attention to each comment.
â silently shares a lot of his interests with you. you already have a huge common one: pokemon, but other things that interest him are also made aware to you through gift giving. for some reason, shota loves buying you gifts of things that you donât even know the reference to?? well, most of them are popular, so you know at least something about them, but other times, itâs just random figurines of characters you donât recognize littered around your dorm. he makes them blend in with the already existing decor on purpose, smiling as he sets them up as he thinks of the expression you make each time you discover one. itâs like a fun game; what will soul leave behind each time he visits your room? each time, heâs guaranteed to leave something, itâs just a matter of if you find it or not.
â he does not like sharing his clothes with anyone!! itâs just not his style, he doesnât like sharing with others and he doesnât want people sharing their clothe with him. whatâs his is his and whatâs yours is yours, respectfully. one thing that soul doesnât mind sharing with you, and only you, though, is some of his ringsâŚnot all of them!! just select ones! heâs very protective of his belongings, especially his rings, so it was a genuine surprise the first day he put it on your finger, but you came to realize it was only a select few he was comfortable sharing. but the fact he was sharing them with you in the first place was already fascinating and left you with a warm feeling in your chest because you knew how special they were to him.
âthis one,â soul gently whispers as you two stand in his room. youâre crowding his desk, where heâs sitting and youâre standing. you watch him go through his jewelry boxes before your outing together. he made a comment on how you were missing essential accessories and then before you knew it, he was dragging you to his room to showcase all the jewelry he had for you to wear for the day.
the one he was holding now was a simple thick, silver band, and he tried it on each of your fingers, gently sliding it on and off to see where it fit best. when he finally saw that it was a perfect fit for your ring finger, he smiled up at you in pride. just when you thought that was enough, he turned back to his collection and began choosing another one.
âone more, it looks silly if youâre only wearing one,â he says in a matter fact tone, and since he was definitely more experienced with accessorizing, you just trusted him. even if it was a matter of opinion, you didnât need to know thatâŚ
he pulls out a more special looking one, a dragon themed ring that has an edgy feel to it. this one goes on your middle finger pretty snug and he smiles wide, happy to see you wearing his jewelry.
âweâre matching,â he says, showing his heavily adorned fingers. the rings themselves werenât matching, but you suppose he meant in general.
âwe are, you have the coolest things, sho,â you say, looking at your fingers with a grin on your face. your hand goes up to ruffle his hair, then resting on the base of his neck as you guide him out of his room, ânow, what should our first stop be?â
âfood,â he says, happily walking beside you as you go out for your âdate.â
â the other member often complain about how you give jongseob and soul the easiest time when it comes to the rigorous training, but they eventually stop bringing it up when one time you went particularly hard on them for their criticism. since that day, theyâve stopped talking about it and just silently wallow in their discovery as they watch you tend to jongseob and soul more than the rest. sometimes, though, their frustration about your difference in behavior does slip out â but no one actually walks away from it with their feelings hurt, so shota will silently continue to take advantage of itâŚ
âiâm tired,â soul huffs, hands on his knees as he watches the reflection of the group in the mirror. he looks to you, pouting as he asks in a light tone, âcan we take a quick break?â
âno, we already took one earlier, we have to practice for longer before taking a break,â jiung denies, shaking his head excessively to show that the idea wasnât going to slide.
âbut-â
âwe can take a five minute break, or you can shota, itâs alright,â you defend immediately, waving your hand for him to take that as his signal to rest for a little bit.
âcâmon, [name], donât go so easy on him,â
âyah, heâs the one thatâs working the hardest, he has the dance break in the middle of the already hard choreo! donât you feel some sypathy?â
âwe all are working hard, thou-â
âi know, and iâm tired too, but imagine how shota feels, heâs the one that has to use the most energy out of all of us!â
ââŚi guess youâre right,â
thereâs a heavy sigh as they realize you wonât back down, standing firm as shotaâs defender. heâs grateful because he really was almost completely worn out at this point and it was seriously getting to him.
âonly a couple minutes, okay?â you gently, but sternly check with him to which he nods in understanding. he smiles at your way of caring for him, holding your hand and planting a kiss on the back before releasing it and flopping to the wood floor of the practice room.
â always wants to be in contact with you. kind of going hand in hand with that other point i made, but to really drive it home, he always wants to be in arms reach of you. heâs holding your hand whenever he has the chance, if you guys are sitting, heâs practically resting in your lap and shamelessly hugging you close. he likes to monopolize on affection because he knows youâre also comfortable giving it. heâs selfish in this sense, not really wanting to share you with others when heâs feeling particularly needy. heâll slot himself into your arms and stay there for as long as possible, no matter the setting.
you guys were all watching the scenes that you had just filmed back, intent on catching if something was wrong. you were on set to film a music video and it was nearing the end of the day, so everyone was rather mellowed out and tired.
shota took his place standing beside you, resting his chin on your shoulder as he watched the clip back. you gently run your hand up and down his back to comfort him of his tiredness, but it only makes him wish to slip into sleep.
âokay, soul, jongseob, theo, and [name], youâre done filming for the day, keeho, jiung, and intak, there is just one more scene we need to run through with you guys,â the three respond with as much enthusiasm as possible, stepping forward to follow the directorâs instructions.
one of your managers comes forward and guides the rest of you to get unready in the dressing rooms, commenting on how after the three were done filming and getitng unready as well, they were going to be sending everyone home. that made the rest of you cheer in relief, taking a seat into the chair to let the makeup staff do their work.
soul had to fight the urge to fall asleep in his seat, watching his reflection and yours in the mirror to try and keep his eyes open. you were out of the makeup chair faster than the others, changing back into your regular clothes, and then collapsing onto the couch and sighing in relief to finally lay down. soul was next to be free, changing as fast as possible, and then falling right on top of you on the couch.
âsho, thereâs so many other open spots,â you groan, turning over so that you were now laying on your back and holding soul directly to your person.
âyouâre more comfortable,â he explains easily, placing a peck on your cheek and then resting his face into your neck and breathing in your scent.
you try ignoring the staff that was filming you with their camera, getting content for who knows what, and follow suit to shota closing his eyes. it seemed the two of you were the only ones that knocked out for a quick nap because when you were woken up by keeho, everyone else was already ready to go.
on the ride back to the dorms, shota was still clinging to your side and resting his head on your shoulder the entire car ride back. he rested your intertwined hands in his lap, too, playing with them until he fell back asleep.
â relying on you if he has trouble communicating something. ever since you were trainees, you made it clear that you were there to support him if he ever had trouble vocalizing something due to the language barrier. frustratingly, he had trouble with that a lot â especially early on when he was training with everyone. but you proved to be a reliable pillar for him to lean on when he had hit a roadblock in terms of what to say in korean. you try your best and even attempting to learn some japanese for him. nowadays, it isnât nearly as often as it was before, but he still looks to you first for some assistance if he ever needs it. he realizes how heâs in an incredibly vulnerable position, to be asking you for help on something as important as clarifying or completely translating something to him, but he trusts you completely and knows thereâs no malicious intent that you could have towards him (youâve proven that to him many times).
â shota who feels the most comfortable with you, in all aspects. in showing affection, in sharing his opinion, in being himself, he can do it all if youâre right there by his side. this trust and faith definitely stems from how your relationship was formed in your trainee days, but shota doesnât mind and instead takes advantage of your deep bond with one another. he often talks about taking you back to japan with him for a return visit (you had already went with him a couple other times, he just wants to bring you back so you can spend more time with him in his home country), speaking of how you need to spend more time with his dogs, too. he wants to keep you as close as possible, both physically and figuratively â in terms of your emotional connection and he will do anything to ensure that.
kim jongseob â maknae timeeee!!!!! despite being the youngest, jongsoeb by far has the most experience on the process of becoming and being a kpop idol. he was a trainee since he was practically 11 years old, so he was more versed in the industry than anyone else. unfortunately, due to his young age, people often donât take him seriously. well, the members definitely do because they were pretty intimidated by him the first time they all met, but other people that work with donât often show him the respect he deserves. but since your guysâ first meeting, you were always courteous and respectful to him, showing through your actions and words that you took him seriously and genuinely saw him to be the artist he worked so hard in becoming. because of this, he holds a special place for you in his heart â incredibly special. to be respected so quickly by someone older, even though you yourself were talented, was a huge honor and pleasant surprise to him.
â[name]! jongseobie is looking for you!â keeho announces, walking into one of the public spaces of the building and tapping your shoulder, âheâs in his studio, so i think it has to do with whatever heâs making,â
you tap intak off of your shoulder, standing up and grabbing your phone from your table. you frown slightly seeing several missed calls and texts from the man himself, pocketing the device and thanking keeho for telling you. the walk is short, going up to the designated floor where the private studios were and making a beeline for jongseobâs.
you knocked a couple times before he opened the door for you, smiling softly when he saw that it was you.
âwhy werenât you answering my texts?â he asks with a drawl in his voice, an in between of teasing and whining. you chuckle softly at it, taking your seat next to him and explaining that your phone was just in do not disturb mode for the evening. âdo not disturb? canât you make it where there are exceptions? i should be on that list,â
âi didnât even know that was a thing,â you defend yourself, but he just clicks his tongue and types away at his keyboard. then, he hands you the mic stand. âhuh?â
âjust do runs over the melody,â he says quickly, hitting his space bar and pushing his chair back so that he could carefully watch you, âi think it would sound like this,â he then weakly vocalizes a unique melody youâd never heard before, âbut i wanted to hear you do it, itâd sound better and help me more than if i did it myself,â
âokayy,â you mimic the sound he made, earning a smile from him as he nods along, egging you on in continuing and letting you choose how the rest of it would sound.
jongseob likes involving you in a lot of his creative processes, similar to jiung. but youâre definitely invited to the studio more with jongseob than you are jiung. this is partly due to the fact that jongseob finds a lot of inspiration in you, as well you naturally helping in unblocking whatever creative dilemma heâs in.
he just always remembers when you two were still trainees and how much respect you had given him. itâs a thought that crosses his mind at least once a day, feeling grateful to have had you there to believe in him wholeheartedly since the beginning.
â briefly mentioned in jiungâs section, but whenever you guys go overseas, who you spend the most of your time with outside of the hotel room is supposed to be evenly splitâŚsupposed to. but the reality is that jongseob is the first to invite you out and â first come, first serve, right? heâs always eager to see the sights with you because he claims you make the perfect center piece for his photography and he likes how you two often share similar interests. when you two go out, his camera is strapped to his torso and youâre both eagerly taking in the foreign sights.
âwait, where did [name] go?â intak asks, coming out of the shower with his hair still damp and towel hanging off of his shoulders, âwe were gonna go to the dining hall for lunch,â
âi think jongseob and him went out,â soul mindlessly answers, scrolling on his phone as he lounges on the couch, âme and [name] hyung are going out for dinner, though, soâŚâ
âwhat?!â
meanwhile, you and jongseob were already a couple of blocks away from the hotel and popping in and out of stores that had caught your eye. occasionally, youâd hear the click of his film camera, but by the time you turn around to look at him with a playful glare, heâs already setting it back onto his hip with an innocent smile on his face.
â jongseob is probably the most vocal in talking about how much admiration and love he has for you. but itâs subtle slips into a conversation vocal, not the kind that is just âscreamedâ at the top of his lungs. thereâs two different ways of speaking about someone, ykwim? thereâs explicitly saying how you feel about them and then thereâs talking fondly of them softly, but in every passing sentence. jongseob is definitely the latter. he isnât the type to lay out all his emotions for others to perceive, instead heâll calmly, but lovingly compliment you and your personality (constantly, at that). he makes it obvious how much he appreciates you, just not super âloudlyâ if that makes sense.
the group was getting interviewed individually for a behind the scenes video for the killin it album. jongseob sat in front of the cameras with a confident smile on his lips, waiting for the next comment the directors had to make.
âwhen youâre writing lyrics, is there anything else that you keep in mind besides the obvious meaning behind the words?â
he hummed, thinking about his answer for a couple of seconds before coming to a concrete answer, âi think about a couple of things, but at the forefront of my mind is how it will sound and how well each member can execute it. for example, for soul, i purposely choose easier to pronounce words to not make it incredibly difficult. and when i am making the general beat or melody, i tend to think about how [name] hyung would execute it. to me, he has the most raw voice that i really love working with and he is also enthusiastic about helping me create the vision before sending the draft to whoever needs to hear it next. his voice alone can inspire a lot of things from me, too, so i tend to just think about him when i compose things or come up with lyrics.â
there isnât an ounce of embarrassment evident on his face as he speaks so truthfully and passionately about you.
the next question the director asked was, âdo the members have a strong say in who gets which line?â
âwell, me and intak just write our own raps, and come together occasionally if we get stuck â but dividing our parts up is easy, itâs just a matter of where in the song the verses are going to be. as for the vocals, i have a strong preference to [name] hyungâs voice, so the others have learned to tune me out of the discussion when it comes to the vocal department. i just end up saying he should get all the parts. but as far as i know, itâs mainly through civil discussion on how they divide the lines,â he laughs after confessing that, making viewers wonder how serious he was about what he just said. but he really drives it home, saying, âeveryone in p1harmony has a unique voice, but i just really gravitate towards [name] hyungâs, i donât know why because itâs been like this since we were trainees.â
âdo you often get writing slumps or are unable to create something that suits your taste? was it especially challenging this time because you knew you were preparing for a full length album?â
jongseob hummed again, finding these questions fun to answer, âi mean, of course, everyone gets writerâs block. i just try getting over it as soon as possible by listening to music that i like and thinking of that as inspiration. but if it gets really bad, i just distance myself and try relaxing,â
âhow do you relax then?â
âjust sleeping, or spending time with the members, but mainly sleeping. i donât like to over exert myself with dancing or vocal exercise too much, so i rely on sleep and [name] hyung to recharge my personal battery,â he laughs at how silly it sounds, but nods to himself knowing that he told the truth.
after the behind the scenes video dropped, p1ece were quick to point out how often jongseob had mentioned you in any question regarding his creative process. and it was heartwarming to see that every mention of you was done with a smile and positive feeling.
âthatâs how you know he really loves [name], he basically called him his museâ
â[name] has been supporting him since they debut so its no surprise jongseob is so open in involving in his song writing and stuff, itâs really nice to see that nothing has changed between these two <333â
â âi hope they can be together for the longest time, they really compliment each other so wellâ
âwhen iâm in an appreciating [name] contest and my opponent is kim jongseob.â
âthe fact that he thinks about how to the song will sound with [name]âs voice in mind, this lil boy from p1harmony really does love [name]â
âthe vitaminâs vitamin is [name] lollolâ
â opposite to shota, doesnât mind sharing his clothes with you. he finds it cute that sometimes he randomly picks a shirt from his dresser and itâs one of yours. and he loves when you two are seeing each other for the first time in the morning and he instantly recognizes the shirt that youâre wearing as his. jongseobâs style is very comfortable, baggy clothes, so itâs mainly sweatpants, hoodies, and oversized t-shirts that end up being co-owned by you. he genuinely doesnât mind. in exchange, he takes some of your clothes too! so itâs basically a fair trade off (not underwear though, heâs no a #nasty gal like intak â who definitely doesnât mind sharing underwear with you lmao). loves when theyâre on the more oversized end because thatâs just his style. loves absolutely drowning in whatever garment heâs wearing that is actually yours. playing with the strings of the sweatpants or snapping the waist band against his skin several times, making his hands drown in the hoodie sleeves, he just finds it so fun to play with clothes if theyâre yours. welcomes you to do the same with his too.
â has a really sentimental photo of the two of you at his work desk. itâs in a simple, but nice, frame and was from your trainee days together. youâre both so much younger, obviously too, but youâre both smiling so wide itâs infectious to him each time he sees it and he smiles too. he thinks it was intak or keeho that took the photo, he canât remember anymore.
it was when everyone was in the practice room for much later than they shouldâve been. he remembers being exhausted and just wanting to go home, but with some encouragement and energy from you, he was determined to get through the entire practice. and when it was announced they were finally done, the two of you collapsed onto the hardwood floor and were just panting in fatigue. the reason you were laughing was just the synchronicity of the action, making you turn to face each other and burst out into a fit of laughs.
whoever had snapped the photo took it in a the fraction of a second, showing it to you two with a proud look on his face. you requested for it to be printed out while jongseob only felt as though it was just a silly photo. when he saw it printed out, though, he suddenly felt sentimental about the memory and wanted his own copy.
heâs recently taken up photography nowadays and itâs usually film, sometimes digital. but with each picture he takes of you, he always tells himself that heâll end up adding that photo to the one existing on his desk. but he canât bring himself to choose one out of the stack of printed photos he has of you, so he usually just keeps them safe in his dorm room, occasionally hanging one up there. but never in his studio. he finds that the singular one there is a strong enough memory for him to use as inspiration to keep trying harder and harder each time he works. he doesnât want to disappoint the you and him of the past, the ones that worked so hard to get to where you were now.
â jongseob being an extremely sentimental guy, but in private. and if not in private, quietly in public. no one really notices this about him, but itâs especially obvious whenever the conversation regards you. he knows he owes so much to you, for what you provided for him during their pre-debut days, and he doesnât want to let you down now. he continues to push himself in excelling for that reason, as well as a multitude of others (such as, wanting to see the group truly succeed and get what they deserve). an incredibly emotional mature person for his age and itâs made obvious to others with how he carries himself and articulates his feelings. thatâs another thing he accredits to you, for properly guiding him. another reason he canât let you down.
â if u made it this far omg i applaud u...this shit is so long, i hope u enjoyed reading about seventh member piwon endeavors!!! i had fun writing them and imagining them. i tried to make it non-repetitive as possible too, and i think (?) i did a relatively good job with that because each members felt unique in some way :3 okay bye thank u sm for reading - if u got this far !!
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the thing about xiaochen is that li tianchen wishes they're doing the "childhood friends to.... something" trope (whatever that "something" means; idk if li tianchen would go far enough to presume they'd be together long-term, in whatever sense you want to interpret that as, but like, he wouldn't be opposed either, is the thing). but liu xiao thinks they're doing the "king and loyal guard dog" trope and there's a high likelihood he does not see the two of them as childhood friends. and I think li tianchen knows this. which is what makes his side of things even more layered and interesting imo. he's like a little duckling imprinting on the first person that didn't make him feel shitty. it's a very low bar, but li tianchen was dealt with terrible cards, so [shrug emoji]
the thing too is like. I don't think li tianchen is unaware that liu xiao is using him or sees value in him for being useful, rather than for who he is. he just also doesn't care at this point, imo? maybe he also has a hard time seeing value in himself as a person, so in his eyes, liu xiao's pov makes sense
because li tianchen attaches his identity to being âa good brotherâ and without xixi. well. what is he then? he has no family, no friends, and all the adults in his life failed him. and in his eyes, when he finally asked for help (by giving the photo to lu guang, and then later kidnapping cheng xiaoshi lol) it didn't work out.
so of course when liu xiao calls him up and reaches out a hand, what else was li tianchen supposed to do?
it's like. look, maybe one day liu xiao is gonna ask him to jump off a cliff for him. do you think li tianchen would be surprised? 'cause I don't think so. I don't think he's naive about what they are. but he's gonna do it anyway because what else is he gonna do? "do I have other choices?" he's gonna do it because it's liu xiao who asked him. his "friend" who has always been "right" thus far
in a twisted way liu xiao hasn't âfailedâ him like everyone else has. li tianchen is a person who really needs to have a sense of power and control over his life and not even liu xiao is giving him that, but it sure is the closest thing because nobody else is gonna offer him anything
interestingly, I think the only other person we've seen him call a "friend" was cheng xiaoshi, whenever he references them having little "games" built on "trust" which. in hindsight. is hilarious because that's a very liu xiao way of speaking lol
anyway, totally headcanon territory, but my ideal S3 dynamic for them is if they both know liu xiao is only pretending to give li tianchen control but liu xiao is really the one who holds all the cards. and maybe that's fine. li tianchen wants to "feel" in control but maybe not actually, because he actually thrives in chaos and being out of control imo. insert prometheus lyrics here, or something. whenever li tianchen tries to take control of his life it kinda spirals. so like. this partnership works out for both of them. also li tianchen is totally a guard dog kinda character and without xixi, well. he might as well put that energy into liu xiao now. something something he's still an older brother to liu xiao who is the estranged younger sibling of the liu family, even though their power dynamic is actually flipped. it's like playing house; it's all pretend, but it makes li tianchen feel good about himself, and maybe that in itself is worth it. maybe, to him, it's the best he can ask for now. and also he still obviously looks up to liu xiao so it's not like this is a hardship for him
they're kinda messed up but I hope they get messier in S3 lol. we still really haven't gotten much of liu xiao's inner thoughts so I would love to see what he actually thinks of li tianchen in S3. something something "those lost in the darkness are my friends"
like does he even like tianchen as a friend? does he see himself as saving him, or using him?
when he reached out his bare hand, perhaps knowing that li tianchen can possess him if he wants to (a direct contrast to how qian jin always wore gloves), was it a calculated move on liu xiao's part to garner li tianchen's trust? will there ever be a time that he'll trust li tianchen genuinely, when there's nothing else for him to fall back on? what is on your mind, liu xiao...
#mine musings#liveblogging link click#link click#ARGH he's so. he's so. I want to squeeze him like a stress ball#everyone else may have forgotten you ltc but i still look forward to your character showing up again <3#whenever i see that picture of lx sitting on a throne and vein is beside him i'm like. wow that's cool. but what happened to tianchen.....#i don't have a ltc tag but i do have a lx tag hold on#lx notes#xiaochen#ltc notes
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hey so ummm idk if anyone out there knows this but in case some ppl are confused, the realism that mise en scène works to construct in the process of filmmaking isnât actually real and storytelling through visual media is a whole industrial complex and professional actors are literally just workers who, in order to do their job professionally, do not feel any certain type of way about what that job entails based on your weird personal morality metrics when acting in service of the story being told.
like are any of you at all cognizant of the fact that when you see an actor portraying a character on screen itâs literally their job to not exist as that actor or the person that they are in their personal lives but instead embody the character for which they auditioned, knowing full well what that might entail? in this case having not only read the source material but already being a huge fan of it, fully aware of the nuanced, grey nature of it all??
like forgive me but if they are actually good at their job (which in this case they absolutely are) an actor shouldnât even cross your mind as a person that exists outside of the narrative when you are watching their performance.
and are you in any way aware of the fact that with the (now very rare) exception of clearly defined lines set out by legal teams and intimacy coordinators and agents and HR being inappropriately crossed without swift repercussions, if an actor actually felt uncomfortable doing something at their job it absolutely would not go down in this day and age? and that an extremely vanilla kiss scene is not worth any semblance of hysterical hand-wringing over?
do you even realize how ridiculous it sounds when you chimp out about the fact that steve blackman has openly âadmittedâ (as if thatâs not a totally normal fucking statement to make and in no way weird or shameful or gross) that he waited until aidan was an adult with agency to give his character (who is a fucking senior citizen btw) a romantic storyline with the only character it made complete narrative sense to give him one with? this is not a âgotchaâ argument itâs literally just the standard respectful thing to do⌠and miss me with your pearl clutching about the characterâs physical age lol heâs physically like 25 by the time anything happens between them in the greenhouse.
technically the age gap goes the other way here, and honestly everyone with more than two brain cells knew the potential for this kind of thing happening given the complicated dilemmas of the characterâs age. it was always going to be morally grey no matter what, and frankly, thatâs what makes it compelling.
and btw, just fyiâ a head writer of a multi-season tv show taking on the responsibility of planning out narrative arcs for fictional characters in very specific contexts does not, in fact, constitute what some of yaâll so hyperbolically refer to as âfantasizingâ about a fully consenting paid actor potentially being assigned a tastefully portrayed romantic storyline with another fully consenting paid ADULT actor who happened to be a âphysical minorâ 15 years younger than them at the time (many years prior) that both parties were hired for the job, which they individually pursued with enthusiasm to obtain.
iâm sorry but there is nothing being logically presented by anyone whining about this that adequately proves there is anything wrong with it other than a personally biased laundry list of wildly reaching assumptions with zero concrete evidence and a whole lot of baseless projections.
likeâŚyou people do understand that all of these actors are doing their jobs and itâs not that deep right?? kissing, especially to the mild extent that was depicted in tua s4e5, is just like any other task in an actorâs job description, and all they are worried about is doing it in a way that best represents the characters in the context of the story that they are being paid quite handsomely to portray, which they contractually agreed upon and willingly consented to do.
not to mention the fact that if you would just take several deep breaths and get your head out of the ass of your moral high-horse for five minutes, you would notice that these actors did an absolutely phenomenal job at selling every single minute aspect of this storyline despite the fact that the amount of work they put in was drastically cut down to literal shreds by the final edit.
but no, yâall judgemental creeps rly out here having the audacity to disrespect the blood, sweat, and tears of the labour they put into itâŚwhich they have gone on record saying they are extremely proud of btw:
claiming concern for the wellbeing of people you donât even know through deluded, sanctimonious takedowns of their hard work that they are (rightfully) proud of is absolutely wild to me⌠itâs giving vipers dressed in empathâs clothing lmao be so fucking for real please.
there is zero real harm to anyone actually occurring here, so pls stop pretending like your paternalistic moral panic is protecting anything other than your idealistic fantasy of how everything you consume should cater to your specific preferences, remain unchanging and safely free from the discomforts of growth, and never challenge your naĂŻve perception of reality or your disney-ass assumptions that all media should exist as a utopian escape from it.
children⌠i beg you to put the ipads down and run your needlessly worried fingers through some actual physical grass i am so fucking serious. please grow the fuck upâfor your own mental peace but also out of respect for the peace of those around you.

and to all you cyberbullying weirdos out thereâfivela enjoyers auto-block hysterical commenters like these not out of cowardice but out of having the maturity to know when to pick your battles, and the unfortunate knowledge that attempting to reason with a certain level of reactionary willful ignorance is a waste of ones precious time and energy.
i have (probably foolishly) made an exception in this instance, bc for better or for worse, i felt that there are simply too many extremely loud voices out here who could do with being told to pipe the fuck down for 5 seconds.
it costs literally $0.00 to mind your goddamn business, stay in your lane, and focus on you and what makes you happy. if you feel the need to define yourself based on what you hate more than what you love, then i would highly suggest having a long eye-opening convo with yourself about why that is. let people enjoy things that nobody is forcing you to enjoy along with them. filter functions exist for this very reason.
it is nobodyâs fault but your own if your media illiterate asses completely misunderstood the assignment and utterly failed to read the room here. like iâm sorry you put your rose-tinted hopes and dreams into something that never pretended to be anything but what it was and not what your narcissistic projections wanted it to be. tough shit. step into the daylight and let it go babes.
i didnât want to do this but i got fucking fed up and needed to clock the tea one time. i will never speak on this again here but iâm sorry it needed to be said.
i wish a very get well soon đ to you all and to all a girl, bye.

#the umbrella academy#tua#tua s4#five x lila#fivela#ritu arya#aidan gallagher#steve blackman#the umbrella academy season 4#five hargreeves#lila pitts#diego hargreeves#lila x diego
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Imagine lee and milf!readerđŠ
lee x milf!reader headcanons
â¤ď¸ note to anon: OHHHHH HOHOHOHO THE DOWNRIGHT EVIL CACKLE I INTERNALLY RELEASED AT THIS. like, I've thought of this briefly before and... so good. so good. â¤ď¸ contains: split up sfw and nsfw content, throat-grabbing, spanking, both reader and lee receiving oral and strap, both lee and reader playing into d/s dynamics, reader's body is referred to w the term "pussy," not proofread
it doesn't even matter that you're older, she's still trying to pay for everything. like, if you're dating lee, what comes with that is her automatically trying to take care of you, even if your savings and income are a lot more secure than hers LMFAO
but, she can't help it-- part of her does love it when you take care of her, buying her a pair of slacks she was looking at when shopping, or getting her the thickest, coziest scarf after catching her shivering the other day. it makes her feel taken care of in a way she often doesn't let herself be
she sometimes tries to intentionally prove how "grown up" she is to you... which is fucking hilarious because she's literally 28 đ but, still, she sometimes tries to be smooth about doing things like taxes and budgeting in front of you, because she wants to prove to you that she can be an efficient partner who can provide for you and be helpful
the first time she does something like this in front of you, she's def admittedly a bit anxious, stumbling over her words as you watch over her and ask her curious questions about her insurance and shit LMAO poor baby is breaking a sweat over it
sometimes, gets insecure about if you'd prefer someone your own age, maybe someone with a bit more life experience, but you always silence her with soft kisses, quietly assuring her that she's all you want, and she's more than capable as a partner, which fills her with warm satisfaction
literally acts like a freshman who's bagged a senior (in all seriousness do not date a senior as a freshman!!!), feeling a spark of pride whenever you show up with her to office parties. I mean, the first time, she's definitely embarrassed -- not of you, but just the fact that she's bringing someone so beautiful and older than her
lays on your tits all the time. idk why this feels so right for milf!reeader, but it just does
whenever you say, "like, when I was your age," she winces because it makes her feel WAY younger than she is LMFAO
but, still, she definitely trusts you a lot due to your life experience, even if it's just by, like, 10-15 years more than her. and so, she usually will come to you for advice when it comes to work, social interactions, even her mom, sometimes -- the last of which you handle so delicately and sweetly the first time, combing her hair and gently whispering as she bites back tears
if you have kids, the older they are, the more scared she is of them LMFAO maika once mentioned this, but she said she feels like lee maybe feels a sense of ease with talking about kids, something I agree with. like, ofc, she'd be awkward and uncomfortable at first, but with time, she'd come to adjust talking to your kid, appreciating the lack of filter and just how damn cute they are. if you have a teenager, though? oh yeah she's probably shitting herself LMFAO and constantly feeling like she's forcefully inserting herself in just by existing around the two of you. she'll try her best to interact, asking questions stiffly about your teenager's classes, and trying not to get annoyed on the days they're showing attitude to you
loves watching you do your night routines, laying out in her tank top and boxer shirts, smoking to unwind, as she watches you pamper yourself at the vanity you insisted on putting in her bedroom
she'll gently joke that you do too much unnecessary stuff in your routine, lazily smiling as she strokes her fingers in your hair once you're in bed. you always scoff and lightly smack her side, playfully saying that she could use some with the worry lines work is giving her (it's very much a joke tho you're literally obsessed w how she looks)
and despite her teasing remarks, she always buys you another bottle of this or that if she spots if when out
she knows you work hard, so she tries her best to take care of you during weekends, like buying food you like and setting aside her own work to look after you with cuddles
nsfw cut:
so, you know, being older and all, you've acquired lots of experience down there, and so, you know what you like, and have picked up on lots of different kinks, fantasies and, you know, techniques
when you tell her all of your different experiences, her eyes are bulging out, clearing her throat hard from how flustered she is. but, she can't deny it -- a part of her is hot with jealousy and arousal over all the things you've done, her naturally competitive streak bolting through her, urging her on to get you in her bed and prove to you she can treat you just as well
she's a bit insecure at first, worried that her own lack of experience will pale in comparison to all that you've done, so you reassure her, over and over again, cooing about how hot you find her and how you'll always enjoy sex with her because it's her
once she feels better, though, she quietly admits to you which kinks of yours she'd like to dabble in, pointedly looking away as she does, her breaths a bit short. but, you? oh, you're ecstatic, totally ready to corrupt her
she lovessss taking care of you, and just wants to be used by you, tbh. like, when you have a bad day, she'll take her time devouring your pussy, sloppily eating and slurping it up as your body tightens and loosens in orgasm after orgasm. even if she has something to read over for work, she'll let you ride her strap, though she usually lasts about five minutes before tossing aside the file, wrapping her arms around your body, then rutting up into your pussy until you shake in orgasm
love when you take control too. like, put your hand around her neck when you ride her, tug her hair, force her face to get smothered by your pussy -- she's glad to do it all. like, the submissive in her goes strong when it comes to you. she just loves having you guide her and being at your complete disposal
and oh, if you top her? such a little mess, just quivering as you press kisses over the brown tuff of hair on her pussy before languidly toying with her clit. and when you use the strap on her, she'll be mindlessly grasping at your shoulders, kissing you hard so you can swallow down her embarrassing whimpers
you kinda love that she's inexperienced, because it feels all the better to try out all your skills and different kinks with her, and see her react to it for the first time -- eyes widening, breaths stuttering, her head tossing back as her oh-so sensitive body trembles
when she takes control for the first time, though, you're literally a puddle. there's something mind-numbingly amazing about being bent over her lap, spanked into a wet mess as she plugs her fingers into you and orders you around
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this idea started when i was predicting who the japanese dub VAs will be for deadlock down the line. i also wanted to draw something about the available match start convos, so this came up.
fern says "you got it buddy" in the original convo, and i was thinking about the best way to translate "buddy". it could be ç¸ćŁ (aibĹ), super common phrase in buddy cop fiction (the most near and dear to me is yagami and kaito from rgg studio's judgement using this phrase).
but i am particularly fond of the idea of infernus calling abrams ăăłă (danna). it's historically been a term used by people who work in hospitality/restaurant/service industries (usually nightlife i would say?) to refer to their patrons in a respectable yet endearing way. it's also a honorific commonly used by younger men referring to a slightly older man in a profession out of respect (an example is from Ghost in the Shell, where togusa refers to batou as batou no danna). i guess a more accessible term is senpai, but ăăłă is way more common in buddy cop fiction or crime/yakuza dramas especially in the mid-century, which i think suits infernus and abrams dynamic, ship or no ship. but!!!!! ăăłă also means husband. and it's a common word still used today.
i just think it's neat that ăăłă can pack a triple entendre for fernbrams :)
also might have a small lore error. i've seen somewhere that the sapphire flame and amber hand are supposed to be penn station and grand central station. nyc geography wouldn't really make sense bc they're literally 10 blocks / ~20 min walking distance from each other and i'm used to calling that area midtown manhattan anyway. idk if it's supposed to be a harsh uptown/downtown difference though. valve pls fix
thanks for reading through my yapping, translation:
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amber hand, grand central station, 30 mins before the ritual, viscous needs hydration, wraith and haze guns go brrr abrams: hey fern. infernus: mhm? abrams: next time you're pouring me the good stuff, remember all the times I saved your life today. krill & wraith: (gossip sfx) lmao right mo: (nodding sfx) (flashback at jezebels, abrams is 7 whiskeys in) infernus: let's wrap it up for tonight. how's that sound. abrams: mmm no infernus: want me to lend you a shoulder home again? abrams: well...
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infernus: uh huh.... infernus: (chuckle) infernus: (pats abrams's shoulder) you got it buddy (danna). go give 'em hell. abrams: abrams: uh. (nervous laugh) yeah.
#deadlock#deadlock game#infernus#deadlock abrams#fernbrams#infernus/abrams#featuring wraith haze mo and krill and viscous the squeaky toy
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For Flowerstem vs Maplewhisker, maybe they're both present and one is like⌠an aide to whichever is the deputy? Not officially, but in the midst of All That they just happen to be helping/supporting the other, and are a clear choice of new deputy once the dust settles.
They're not necessarily friends at the start, either acquaintances that grow closer through a shared sense of "someone has to keep things working", or maybe even rivals of a sort- they don't get along great initially, but they respect each other, and it turns out they're willing to back each other up when it matters (+ the value of having a second-in-command who's willing to disagree with you)
idk i'm just spitballing here tbh
I layed around and daydreamed about it for a bit, and I think this is a great idea. I have even more thoughts to share as fragments;
To start with, I'm thinking Flowerstem is going to be the Winner of the Conflict, and Maplewhisker is going to become her friend and future deputy. Mothpelt is going to be the oldest heir*, who dies of poisoning along with a few of his children.
And to reiterate, Jumpfoot is the descendant of Riverstar's firstborn child, and Mossfire is his adopted heir.
Renames to get the names more in-line with where they were at this period in history;
BB!Flowerstem -> Flowers Came First. Nickname: Flow. A River Kingdom title. Comes from a translation quirk. "Stem," prryem, is the place where plants erupt from the ground in modern Clanmew. Over many generations, influenced by the story of Redscar's sign, "Came" and "First" merge into a single word, Prryem. Eventual winner of the conflict.
BB!Maplewhisker -> Maple Whisker A Mountain Cat name. Actually a reference to the odd saplings that were planted in SkyClan's territory (and is now ThunderClan's). Maple might be a migrant from SkyClan or a second-generation descendant of them, so a more accurate translation would be Sycamore Whisker, but the translator chooses to abide by the precedent set by Mapleshade. Flow's future deputy. (FUTURE ADDITION: Design draft 1 here) (I don't currently have a Mountain family with the Whisker last name, I might end up making it something that came from a Mountain x Forest/Park blended family, as a Mountain cat wanted to name half of the kits for their mate as is tradition.)
BB!Mothpelt* -> Dead Moths Pelt. Nickname: Moth (though I'm easily tempted by funny into making it Moe.) Another River Kingdom title, for the irony factor. It's actually a reference to how he rescued a ton of pelts from a moth infestation, by recognizing they were laying eggs and stopping them before they hatched. Hard to translate into just three words, because in Parkmew it was "Killed (the) moths (to save the) pelts." * = Watch this space. Might change in a future draft.
BB!Jumpfoot -> Jumping Foot Nickname: Jump Actually from WindCo. I haven't worked out the meaning behind this title yet. I'm going to make it so Duststar is supporting this cat for leadership; they might even be slightly related. Cousins, perhaps.
BB!Mossfire -> Mossfire Alight Only given recently, when Moss set her own fire for the very first time. Barely out of apprenticeship, but very popular. Riverstar's adopted child.
(I also need to pick the ThunderClan "Diplomat" character.)
More fragments and assorted thoughts;
(Three parts: Opening, Middle Stuff, and Redscar's Choice)
Opening and political setup:
BB!Flowerstem, Flow, is kind of like an older sibling/nanny of Moss. She was an apprentice of King Riverstar, and unofficially trusted to watch over Moss, who is considerably younger than she is. She wasn't formally adopted by King Riverstar but he always felt like a father to her.
BB!Jumpfoot, Jump, is from WindCo. Riverstar's firstborn was not legitimate, who lived a long and happy life as a traveler going between the various groups.
Riverstar is actually Jump's great-great-grandfather, but Jump is an accomplished, confident warrior who's just young enough to have a long rule, but experienced enough to make Mossfire look like a child in comparison.
And, importantly, Duststar wants Jump in power.
When Riverstar is on his deathbed, Flow, Moth, and Moss are there. Jump actually blows in later, and the Unnamed ThunderClan Diplomat.
The Diplomat is going to be one who does the poisoning later. Jump is REALLY easy to pin the blame on, because he's aggressive and kind of arrogant.
Through the story, Flow is trying to protect both Moss AND keep the River Kingdom functioning. Without even realizing it, people keep coming to her for advice.
Maple Whisker is her really good ally through all this. I'm not sure how they're going to begin, they COULD be rivals, but the important thing is that Maple and Flow naturally end up supporting each other.
While Flow is trying to keep Moss safe and fend off the other Heirs who are showing up looking to make claims to power, Maple is handling a lot of the logistical things.
Flow is an excellent "face." Her judgement is generally influential.
She's kind and compassionate, and it means that she's able to smooth out conflict in a way that King Riverstar used to be able to.
And there are a LOT of fights to break up.
Jump is a complete troublemaker already trying to assert his claim, and he's got cats to back him up.
Moss, who is really trying to be fair here, often gets pulled into fights.
FLOW'S biggest "flaw" is that she's honest. At some point she even admits, "Moss is really not ready for leadership. She needs more time before she has this responsibility."
unfortunately, opportunists and blood-loyalists who don't believe "adopted" can count as legitimate jump on that. Mossfire resents this, even though Flow is right, and she IS in waaay over her head.
But, thankfully, there's still an option.
The Eldest (currently living) direct child of Riverstar, Dead Moth Pelt, Moth, is the obvious alternative. He's older, speaks highly of his father, has connections to the River Kingdom.
And, importantly, he's got kittens of his own. Easy choice! They'll continue the dynasty and we won't have to worry about this again.
They're Just Like The Wind Runner
(jump and duststar disliked this)
.....hmmmmm. You know what would be cool?
The ThunderClan Diplomat being one of these kids.
Maybe in a future draft the Diplomat will be Mothpelt, and the ELDEST will be Beechstar. Maybe their name can be Beech Shore.
Add some more messy dynamics here, have it that Mothpelt "wants to avenge!" the father he actually killed.
(Notes from the future: The Diplomat's name is Bright Whisker. We committed to her being related to Maple Whisker.)
But ANYWAY. This draft first.
Moth is a showman and a people-pleaser. He decides he wants to have a party to honor his father's life,
At this celebration, Moth's direct family all eats from the same, very special pot.
Everyone in this family is poisoned with wolfsbane. None of them are able to make the trip to the Moonstone, and one-by-one, Moth and his kits succumb to it.
(except, of course, the diplomat, if he ends up being a descendant of The Eldest.)
The Diplomat, whoever they are, makes the obvious accusation;
Jumping Foot did this.
MIDDLE STUFF
All this while, I think Flow should be realizing there's something wrong with the Diplomat. But there's ALSO a lot wrong with Jumping Foot
As Jumping Foot becomes unpopular, his supporters are rallying around him and the accusations are starting to get thrown around
Re: It's VERY useful that Flow remains the only POV here, realizing that the fighting and the fracturing factions are starting to affect the function of the River Kingdom
Maple Whisker is by her side, constantly running to come fetch her to break up fights and arguments
Dens aren't getting maintained, cats are going hungry as there's no one really "in charge" of making meals for everyone
I want to make sure it's clear that it's not an "ABANDON OLD PEOPLE" situation. It's Flow laying it out directly;
"Everyone who isn't part of a large family is suffering. You HAVE to pick a side in order to have access to good food and shelter... and Jumping Foot is backed up by the Wind Coalition!"
In this shuffle, she's having a hard time protecting Moss, who's getting sick and tired of her Kingdom being yanked around.
She's growing up quick, having to work with Flow to take care of the cats in the Kingdom, but it's also making her more aggressive. Less patient.
Through The Diplomat, ThunderClan also begins to stick their nose in, which The Diplomat frames as "aid, they are our allies after all. Ties to them run deep, unlike those of the Wind Coalition."
Flow starts to realize that between these two huge coalitions, backed by outside forces, the River Kingdom will get absorbed.
In the shuffle, Flow and Mossfire Alight are starting to break apart. They used to be close, but the stress is making Moss aggressive and short-fused.
She NEVER used to start fights like this, but now Flow is finding herself trying to stop her previously so openminded charge from escalating conflicts.
It's a complete lost cause. There's no way Mossfire is going to be able to come out on top between two very powerful choices, backed up by other Clans
Most River Kingdom cats DO actually believe that it would have been King Riverstar's will for his adopted heir to take over. They disagree on if that's the right choice, or if an adopted one can be legitimate at all, or, WORST of all, if they even CAN support her when a lot of their food and supplies are coming from ThunderClan and WindCo
This comes to a boil when SkyClan charges in for a surprise attack, seeking to claim the territory before it's fully absorbed by the other two.
Because the River Kingdom's camp was on the Sunningrocks, an island in the middle of the river, this battle is CHAOTIC and DEADLY
The island was almost too small to hold all of the reinforcements and MORE AND MORE kept coming, packing in like sardines
The fighting was spilling over onto the banks, over the log bridge, a fight almost as dense and even more SUDDEN than The First Battle
Noncombatants were getting swept up into the fighting, no one knowing who they were supposed to be fighting against, some cats just jumping on those they didn't like, cats who couldn't swim were getting launched into the water
Flow and Maple Whisker can't SAVE all of them
And in the brawl, Mossfire leapt on the cat who she felt had been making her life hell, who KILLED Moth and his children, who needed to DIE
Jumping Foot was happy to return the sentiment, ready to eliminate this bloodless brat once and for all
As they tussled and tumbled, they crashed into the waves, biting and scratching, not realizing that their crowns had become tangled.
Mossfire tries to break the water for a breath, but Flow only sees her back breach the surface before getting dragged under
She leaps back in to try and save her, trying to pull her up, but Jumping Foot is a WindCo cat who doesn't know how to avoid drowning. He grabs at Mossfire in a panic, joined at the crown, and Flow can't pull them both up
The last time Flow sees Mossfire is in that terrified, tangled image, sinking down to the depths, seemingly locked in eternal combat down to the bottom of the river.
Redscar's Choice
When we cut back to Flowers Come First and Maple Whisker, Flow is absolutely haunted.
It seemed like the "obvious" choice was The Diplomat... but after that awful fight, an emergency gathering had to take place.
EVERY Clan lost warriors. ShadowClan was demanding to know why-- as they were the only one not officially involved in the fight, and even THEY are missing warriors.
WindCo has the most losses, and Duststar is VERY quiet. Jumping Foot's death shook him. There wasn't even a body to bury, and he hasn't gotten word on if Jump's gone to StarClan or not.
He's quiet because the guilt is eating him from the inside out. He's doing some sort of prayer behavior, quietly, as if he doesn't even seem to realize he's doing it.
(probably keeping his whiskers tilted upwards at the stars, twitching whenever the breeze hits them.)
ThunderClan's leader seems more frustrated than anything. Flow interprets this negatively, like they just want to get on with it and claim River Kingdom as their own.
(in truth, it's more likely this leader is annoyed with The Diplomat's meddling, the Kingdom isn't a prize they really want, they just honored an alliance and lost a ton of warriors for the trouble. But what matters is what Flow feels about them.)
SkyClan got absolutely humiliated. They were the catalyst for the battle but were quickly overwhelmed, and the current leader just took a MASSIVE reputation hit. It's not the Era of Skystar any longer.
(someone makes a xenophobic comment about "Jump back up into your trees, gray squirrels")
Maple Whisker, in a quick-thinking effort to avoid The Diplomat being officiated, calls upon a neutral party. Redscar of ShadowClan.
If mortals cannot figure out the rightful heir, then surely, StarClan must.
Duststar jumps on this immediately.
Diplomat doesn't like it, but it doesn't matter, because the ThunderClan leader does. Speaks right over them.
Over a couple of days, Redscar "deliberates" by visiting River Kingdom to "spend time under their stars."
But what he's REALLY doing is checking out how the Kingdom runs. And he's really gentle with Flow, in particular, like he's very interested in her.
When she questions why, he lies, "You have spirits around you."
This gets her to open up about how close she was to so many of the cats that died, explain how hard she's worked to keep it all together. How much she misses Mossfire, how she feels she failed her.
And King Riverstar, and Moth, and his poor kits.
I feel like The Diplomat is probably constructing signs to try and appeal to Redscar, thinking he's looking for them, but Redscar is NOT looking for signs. He's actually ignoring them completely.
This is going to be remembered as "seeing through false omens" but in truth, he was not interested in what StarClan actually had to say here, if they even did say anything.
(King Riverstar, as a patron, is remembered as NOTORIOUSLY silent. He never says anything directly.)
What Redscar ultimately concludes is, "It seems you and Maple Whisker have ruled together this whole time, with your leadership and her stewardship, it was almost strong enough to keep the Kingdom together."
Flow makes a remark that it sure didn't turn out well, if that's the case.
"Through no fault of yours."
Shortly afterwards, he constructs the False Sign which selects her as a leader. Redscar also insists that, because she did not rule alone, Maple Whisker must become a "deputy," as they have in ShadowClan.
She agrees to this term, justifying it by saying that it is sort of like an advisor role, which she used to be... but it's not. It's quite different.
This law is eventually adopted as Commandment 3: The Law of the Deputy. That all Clans must have a Leader, and a Deputy. The Deputy must be appointed before Moonhigh, and to become a Deputy, you must have once been responsible for young lives.
(This is in honor of Flow's relationship to Mossfire. It will be tweaked over the generations to specifically mean a mentor/apprentice relationship, but the first draft of the law could also include being a Mi or Ba.)
Thus, the River Kingdom is no more. RiverClan is born, and in agreeing to the terms, WindCo becomes WindClan.
Something changes on this day, with so many cats dead and the group now being something very different. The era of charitability and open relations between Clans... is starting to seem like a bad idea.
The current of the river is the same, but somehow, the water is different.
Last plot thread left to wrap up is The Poisoning.
It's GOTTA be a dramatic reveal of some sort. The Diplomat makes one last grab at power. I think it would actually be a BIG power move if Flow came back with her lives, receiving the wisdom from Redscar that Diplomat was constructing false signs, putting two and two together...
A feast is thrown, she decides to eat in the same exact way Moth did, makes it very clear she's "repeating" the mistake because Jumping Foot is dead and that means that the assassin is not here to put down poisons. The Diplomat falls for it, hook, line, and sinker, tainting her food in between servings.
And when they do, Flow INSISTS that The Diplomat come, and have a bite with her.
She's got nine lives to spare now. She can give one up, just for the satisfaction of locking eyes with them as they both have a bite of the same poisoned food. The horror, the panic, in their expression is the most delicious thing Flow has ever tasted.
If seeing Mossfire's crown tangled with Jumping Foot's was like a stag who dies with antlers locked, then Flow dying next to The Diplomat, sticking around in StarClan to watch them damn them and send them to the Dark Forest, and then rise again to attend her Clan, this moment was like being a stag who outlives their foe and wears their skull as a second crown.
Long Live Flowerstar.
#I will still be tagging these guys with their COTC names + BB! bangpath so they're easy to find#BB!Maplewhisker#BB!Flowerstem#BB!Mothpelt#I like it ehwn girls#Girlies will die tangled in mortal combat with their foe and call it tuesday#Riverstar's Heir#Better Bones AU#The Mossfire vs. Jumpfoot part of COTC is like the best and coolest bit#Doing my part to make it Even Cooler <3
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bts of these photos Aemond: ElvenDen Helaena by me
I know that gifs look weirdly cropped, that's because no one was looking how vids were recording, and it's a miracle some bts are salvageble at least as far as heads go. even without the necks. :c
still cute tho. and not-so-cute, the 2nd one will forever be whoa in gif or photo form for me.
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Photos, gifs, videos from costests/cos shoots/cons
Inprogresses (costumes, 3d printing etc)
since it's my blog and I can talk at length about anything, here's a story of how I came to ship Helaemond TL;DR: fanarts and actors. & my anti S2 / Condal & Hess musings again. Wasn't planning on venting, but TG treatment still makes me so mad that I can't do one without the other.
Okay so my friend kept telling me her friend looks a lot like Aemond. I've met him once before this costest at the elven photo planner & he really does, but I still wasn't fully prepared for how uncanny it will be in costest. đš It's uncanny to be point it's CRAZY especially as up close as in the gifs above. Y'all are not ready for the full cosplay.
ANYWAY. So I sort of started thinking who among HotD characters I could try putting together for a costest for this to make sense. Alicent was out of the question since I don't look like her at all, and with me tending to look younger than I am, it would have looked even weirder than in the show. Eventually, I was choosing between Hel and Alys. I didn't ship Helaemond at the time, and we had no stills of Alys back then, so Hel seemed like an easier choice, plus I had my Dany wig.
And then I realized people actually shipped them, and at first I was like, 'huh'? Since they barely had any scenes and whatnot. Not that the greens had a lot of scenes together even back then. I wasn't particularly in the fandom, too thank god, I wish I could unsee some TB's hot takes. ANYWAY. I genuinely wasn't planning for this costest to be shipping galore at first, because I didn't know this was even a thing. Then I started looking up the fanarts and started to see the appeal. xD No joke, it legit happened when I was looking for references in a span of a few days. Then I saw how Ewan and Phia were hyping them up for S2 and talking about them in S1, and I was fully on board... Only for S2 to turn out to be so underwelming and character assassinating for all the greens blacks too, I really liked Rhaenyra in S1 and it's insane how much of a nothing sandwich she is after S2. By the time we shot the costest right before S2 finale, I had so little hope we'll get anything. Or more like. I knew we still haven't seen the scenes Phia and Ewan were talking about, so I knew we were getting something, just probably something that will simultaneously shit on Aemond and the ship since TG can't have nice things or feel anything but disdain for one another per S2 aside from Alicent and Hel because they aren't male therefore can be nice to each other. And at that point, I was so invested that I'm in my delulu land now, surrounded by my plans to do Helaemond justice in the best way I can. With maybe some side plans to try gathering the whole TG to ya know. Annoy people who hate them even more. xD Jokes aside, I'd really love to do that, I'd love to at least shoot Targtower kids as, you know, not hating each other. Shippery or not, doesn't matter. I'd just really like to do some wholesome green things, but yeah atm we're just Hel, Aemond & Alicent, and tbh I don't think it's possible to find an Aegon over here. I tried reaching out to my friend in another city, but got more of a 'no', than 'yes' answer, so idk where to find Aegon unfortunately.
I might eventually do Alys since my face works for both Hel and Alys & I can pull off one hell of a bitchface I'm actually surprised how I somehow come off so soft as Hel, but I have a feeling the show will make her TB she practically already is, and since Aemond is the eViLeSt person to ever evil in Westeros per Condal & Hess aka the only character making sense amids ongoing war with magic medieval nukes ffs, and doesn't deserve good things... I don't see a universe in which Alysmond will be really inspiring, not fucked up from the get go. I don't trust them. At all. So like. Giant question mark there. Helaemond priority. Fuck this show. Like if I had the resources to, I'd honestly shoot a bunch of scenes, not just photos. Hell, I'd reshoot S2, TB included, lol. But my ass is broke and I'm doing both mine and Aemond's cosplays so. đ¤ˇđźââď¸
'Cause not that they haven't fucked up Helaemond⌠Or Alicent's relationships with her sons... Every single relationship of the greens went down the drain so fast it's like. The. Fuck? No, seriously, it still enrages me Hel helped Daemon of all people?? And seemed to almost wish Aemond would just drop dead right there. ANYHOW yeah⌠Yeah. I legit have so many ideas. I love using props and all that, and with her needlework, love for bugs & her overall tragic story (plus the dreamer storyline on the show the show doesn't touch like AT ALL), I want to do so much!
TL;DR again: the fandom made me do it. Just like the fandom made me dislike TB a lot. Or more like, the loudest TB stans with double standarts and zero understanding of how Westeros and people in it should function. And that it's not real world and no one is 'coded' anything related to our world or politics (or at least they shouldn't be no matter how much Condal & Hess try to push contemporary problems into the show to pat themselves on the back).
I realize there are dubious people on both sides of the fandom, but really not even Condal & Hess can make people like or dislike characters as much as their stans can. Oh also, WHY THE FUCK ARE THERE EVEN SIDES. They literally pitted the fandom against each other, it's so sick and twisted and all sorts of fucked up.
Back to Condal & Hess, them trying to sink TG so much made me sympathize even with those on it I didn't care about at first, like Criston, and simultaniosly dislike the Saint-RhaeRhae side and it's vicious vocal part of the fanbase... I even liked Daemyra in S1, but after S2 I don't want to touch anything or anyone related to her with a ten-foot pole. Even tho I still like some characters on TB, they just ruined everyone. To some extent on both sides, but for TG I sort of want to do things in support of them and in spite of Condal & Hess. Thereas for TB... After S1 I was thinking of cosplaying Rhae, but LMAO NO. Just no.
Tagged this with all the anti tags I mention, so don't come at me, I don't have time, and do have a block list. You can argue with the wall or those who want to argue. If you can't disagree with someone & be civil about it, it's not my problem.
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I told I would show up eventually and here I am (even tho i should be asleep)
for the design lab: Sweetheart oc
1. What's your listener's name and nickname?
Cassiel (chosen name), commonly referred to as Sneaks or Cass (still called Sweetheart by Milo)
2. What's their backstory?
Cassiel comes from a family of five, having one older and one younger brother (Jonah and Raphael respectively). He comes from a well-off family, high middle class, both parents work in healthcare. Their older brother is studying to become a surgeon, and their younger brother wants to become a sculptor but is being pressured to pursue a science instead. Typically Cass doesnât get as much feedback about their carer from their parents. A few times it was suggested they should become a teacher or a lawyer, but Cass never liked the idea of those. He never considered going into medicine, since they knew how much it strained their family, and they wanted to do something outside of the beaten path. Make a name for themselves as *Cassiel* not as a Grandwood (family name). Because their parents worked such hectic hours, Cass was often the one to watch their little brother in the evenings/weekends, and did not have free time for themselves because of this. They were not a very social child either, obsessed with booksâmystery books in particularâand pouring themselves into their studies so they donât get chewed out for their grades. When they found out that they were empowered, being the only one in their family to be empowered, they were very freaked out. They were only 13, and had no one to turn to. One of his teachers, also empowered, alerts Mazeed al-Masih (goes by Maze generally) who is a department worker, and he teaches Cass everything they need to know. They find out the opportunities they now have because they are empowered, things he didnât even dream about, and he sets off for DAMN university as soon as heâs graduated high school. DAMN is in a different state than Cass, despite being the closest, so this does separate them from their family, and they donât make a habit of keeping in contact with anyone but their little brother. They make it their mission to become an Investigator, and the best one around at that.
3. What's the desired aesthetic of your listener character (punk, greaser, bimbo, scene kid, schoolgirl)?
Kinda thinking punk meets 1920âs investigator. If that makes sense. idk if it does.
4. What's your listener's gender presentation like?
Trans-masc, usually says that theyâre non-binary. (they/he pronouns)
5. What's your listener's ethnicity?
Irish
6. What's your listener's age?
33
7. What's your listener's body type/build?
Iâm not sure any official words for it, but like a volleyball/swimmer build (they played volleyball since middle school)
8. What's your listener's star sign?
Sagittarius
9. What are your listener's most important relationships and who are they connected to?
Familial (both found and blood): The pack, Mazeed, Raphael (little brother), their friends from DAMN, the rest of their family to an extent
10. What's your listener's hobbies/interests?
Reading, puzzles (both jigsaw and things like crosswords/sudoku/etc), walks/cafe visits to people watch, volleyball
11. If your listener was a deity from a known mythology, what deity would they be?
Athena
12. What Audio RP series are they from?
Redacted Audio (if you couldnât tell)
13. What kind of lover are they to their partner/what kind of friend are they?
Theyâre pretty attentive to the ones they love. If thereâs the tiniest thing that they notice theyâre going to attempt to fix it. Very much a quality time/acts of service guy. Some would think that because of the effort they put into their work, they wouldnât be a very good lover and those people are very very wrong. They will make time for everything (even if it nearly kills them)
14. What is something/are some things that your listener values?
Family, justice, quality time (if that counts??)
15. Pick a song that you think represents your listener.
Second Child, Restless Child by The Oh Hellos
16. What's the inspiration behind your listener's design?
Honestly a lot of Cassâ design/vibe is just a mash of a bunch of things I enjoy in a character, but the main thing i think of when i think of him is âtasks themselves with fixing the worldâ and a lot of 1920âs snuff films. Cass is definitely my most chaotic oc so far.
17. Could you give me a vague concept of what your listener's visual vibe is?
Fashionable when trying, very cozy when theyâre not. Theyâre very intimidating when they dress up, usually has rings and the like on. If itâs for work, itâs very much business attire with a few personal touches that wonât get them in trouble (their rings, for example). If itâs a casual day in with Milo/the pack they let themselves dress cozier with over sized sweaters and such.
18. What are some extra tidbits you wanna tell me about your listener?
This kinda goes with the program but i kinda wanna stress how stubborn (maybe headstrong is a better word idk) they are. They will do something the hardest way because thatâs how they started it and they donât want to change plans now. They also have a necklace that their little brother gave them that they wonât take off. I think thatâs all I wanna mention.
LaVeau-gue - design #004 - Sweetheart - Cassiel - Pluto

I haven't touched this series in a while but I'm back at it and starting it up slowly with Pluto's Sweetheart, Cassiel!
Design Notes
I would say this was difficult to design but that would be a lie. Instead I will say that it was fun to mess with this design.
First off, my major considerations were that this was a design for sweetheart, it was supposed to be inspired by Athena, it was noir punk and that you're a Percy Jackson fan (debatable since you like the movies but oookaaayyy/j).
So for this, I wanted to lean into different things; Cassiel should look put together but similalry uncooperative-you mention that growing up, they got good grades but did so for the sake of earning them to pass off as a good student rather than having a love for it. Additionally, the mention of their love of puzzles as well as their meticulous attention to detail concerning their loved ones gave me a good idea of what their shape language should be.
Cassiel reads someone who is somewhat athletic, attentive and keen to question things so while their hair might be slicked back, their posture upright and their attire somewhat kept, they do not concede to the complete idea of being wholely tidy by appearance. Following old british punk influence, I loosened Cassiel's tie, gave him a blue patch in their nice dress pants, added a blue studded belt and choker while also giving them a fishnet top which is more emo than punk but the addition of it feels it's anti-DUMP dresscode so I ran with that.
I did take note of Cassiel's penchant for dressing up and rings but elected that such a look would not be regular enough to make up for a complete design so I leaned away from that and into something that Cassiel would wear while in the field.
Finally, after those aspects, I then leaned into their athena inspiration and DUG for some inspiration from Epic The Musical-that led me to using blues and grays within the design BUT the majority of the influence came from the concept of barn owls. This shaped out with their hair being slicked back, their colour pallette mimicking the same distribution of colour across a barn owl's feathers as well as the framing of his face. As a smaller note, I gave them blonde hair and a grey streak as a callback to annabeth who sports that kind of hair in the PJO books if I'm not mistaken.
I hope I did you concept some justice with this design @agentplutonium!
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The Heart killers ep 11 stray thoughts
With accompanying screenshots, cuz I take to many and they can't just go to waste

Once again/still Keen just wants to be included. Now that he has seen Lilly will never see him as equel to his brothers, he is trying to get validation from Bison and Fadel.

Right, cuz you look like you're good at that. We will just pretend that we haven't seen your backbone turn into jelly when you're around Captain

Wait, so they didn't kill him. Where has he been this whole time, in between staging his murder and this scene? Was he just chilling with Nont in Fadel and Bisons kidnapping lair (which they apparently have).

He just knows a guy, casual .
He also just has a whole plan planned out. You'd think he was the one with the training in this shit, not Fadel

The look of concern in his eyes. Because of course, Style was able to spot the slight change in Fadels expression, indicating he was upset/weary/uncomfortable.

Doesn't he say younger brother (nong chai/shai [im not sure how it is written]) here, why would they translate it like that, this makes it seem like he doesnt see Fadel as his brother.

Finally somebody is giving that tattoo the love it deserves.

Facts
Also the first time (or one of the rare occasions) that we see Fadel with genuine, borderline crazy/psychotic anger in his eyes. He's usually the one to be more calm and

Oh, they're using their height, narrowing in on her, forcing her to look up, making her feel small. Stunning, just what she deserves.

-I love you so much; I'd give up my freedom for your safety

-I love you so much; I'd give up my life for your freedom.
Also, btw, 5 years of prison for the number of murders they committed, thats pretty nice. Of course, i wanted them to be free, but looking at it logistically, that is a solid deal
It does imply a timeskip, whomp whomp

Just give me a clear yes or no. Is Bison religious (christian, to be specific)? Cuz this is just a saying and stuff, but also putting it next to all the other christian Bison stuff we've seen, im starting to believe it

Ah, look at that. Fadel got his family (parent), and Bison got his little brother (Babe). These boyfriends are adding way more to their life then you would first assume.
Also, Styles dad immediately suggesting they get married as soon as he realizes they are genuinely dating it ao cute. He has/knows as lil casual-/subtlety as Style does. I guess it's genetic

Omg they are so sweet. Not hiding/secret but private cuz its their communication, their comfort.

I needed this scene to be like an hour long actually, just them cleaning each other with the garden hose, sweetly talking about whatever.

Right. I'm not surprised, I could tell Style was a bitter but like looking at his and Joongs laugh afterwards (and just the absurd inconvenience of it) I'm gonna guess this wasn't scripted, just Dunk. Which.. raises some questions, but we'll keep moving.

Dude was straight up beefing with a child

So he is either assuming hell die a natural death or he's killing himself. Cus i assumed he'd probably die on the job, get killed by someone, but that for sure requires there to be another person. I guess he could also be insinuating that when he dies, he'll be alone in the sense that he is leaving no one behind, no loved ones.
Idk what is sadder him thinking no one would love him when he died or him assuming he'll die by his own hand.

Are they at a graveyard? It doesn't look like it. Because, im not very educated on Thai law, but i can't think it would be legal to just bury someone wherever.

Style earlier the episode saying he'll die for Fadel(s safety) and Fadel saying he'll live for (/with) Style. God, i love them

Glad we are at least acknowledging the absurdity of it.

Are we talking (/joking) about Bison lactating? Cuz that would make that this shows second mpreg/omegaverse reference.

Forever watchfull Style

Forever considerate Style. Even with the garage to work at (and low key co-run) he is willing to give up time, just to keep Fadels dream/passion alive

Did Style fucking make a heart out of the sauce?! Why didn't we get a better shot of that, that is so cute.

So all the other boys his dad mentioned were just one night stands and situationships. Fadel was the first guy he actually wanted to settle down with. (Also, dont take this to mean anything, but it kinda mirrors Joong and Dunk. Joong having had an acting partner before Dunk, but splitting up under unfortunate circumstances, mostly out of their hands. Joong being Dunks' first actor partner, only having had a small unnamed guest role before working together with Joong)

Ive never seen to guys look so sad while eating burgers , like it was actually making me emotional. Cuz there was no big sad outburst or anything, just the everpresent underlying knowledge that this will be the last meal they'll get to share in a long time. Just the subtle sadness in their eyes and the little sniffles. I low key didnt expect them to be this good at conveying such subtle yet intense emotions.

The look in their eyes, i am actually so not okay

Not to be critical or anything but no way in shit that was done by an amateur. Like i get he'd have a pretty steady hand due to his training with guns. Bit not only does Bison usually hold his gun with both hands, it is an entirely different grip and requires such different muscles.

Yo wtf, I wasn't prepared for an emotional scene of just Kant and Style crying
This episode was just so full of cute scenes omg. I have so many notes that are just screenshots of a sweet scene or moment where the only comment I had was just saying aaahhw or some shit. And although I would love to share those with you, Tumblr has an image limit, so unfortunately, this is all I could stuff into one post.
I am a lil weary/concerned with how they are going to finish this all in one episode though. Like we have five years of prison to still cover and only an hour of screentime left.
Favorite scenes
Lillys confrontation was very satisfying
Style and Fadel cleaning eachother of after the paint fight ofc
Kant and Bison in the planetarium (specifically watching the stars)
Fadel and Style at the support group talking things out
Everything in Heart Burger, from the cute cooking together to eating through tears. Absolute perfection.
Kant and Bison tattooing eachother and just the sweetness of that all
And although their goodbye and Kant and Style crying in eachothers arms wasn't fun, it was a really good scene.
Also, there are no in-depth screenshot stats today (this post has already taken too long). Just know I took a total of 245 screenshots (funfact: that is actually more picture than I have of myself on my phone)
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finished sotr a couple hours ago .. lots of things to say but unfortunately unable to articulate. am digesting everything i essentially just speedread (i started like .. what was it it was saturday night LMAO im gonna have to reread it before actually saying anything) umm im so grateful that pdf is a thing otherwise i wouldve been waiting till literally like .... april ...... goodness gracious
anyways i just wanna yap a bit abt the bingo card i made (it sucks but idc its silly i had fun) SOTR SPOILERS !!!!!!!
pleaseee tell me if i missed anything
okay so to yap a bit. i fr thought we were gonna get a glimpse of maude ivory but finding out she died makes a lot of sense?? somehow?? feels kinda like the singer girls of the covey are truly gone until katniss comes around. and i cant stop thinking about how lucy gray, maude ivory and lenore dove all have gray colors ?? smth to think about considering the covey love color sm. there has to be smth more to it but im so fried
idk why i even put "capitol propaganda against haymitch" considering its legitimately the most redundant shit ever ... suzanne literally said the book was abt propaganda đđ ignore my dumbass pls
was super surprised to see effie even though i was hoping for it? i love effie but her in this book had me kind of like "hm." like i liked it?? i LOVED her coming in to cover for proserpina but she seems so different in this book you know ?? and i really thought she was same age/younger than haymitch kinda funny to see her as older
wanna talk about the d4 kid called fucking URCHIN suzanne i love you but WHY .... isnt it suffering enough to be in the games why would you do this to him. and SPEAKING of stupid ass names .. merrilee. merrilee??? absolutely jawdropping how ironic and funny as fuck that name is every time i think of that poor girl i cant help but laugh
on the topic of, im very upset that i never got to know whether sid was short for smth ... haymitch and sid. SID.
i was jumpscared by the ai reference i thought that was a nice little bit .. a bit disappointed i didnt see anything that stood out to me as specifically talking about palestine though? maybe im stupid and missed it or the book was already essentially done by the time the conflict started but ... yeah. was a bit surprised by that because i really thought that suzanne's "i will only write when i have something to say" would be about palestine .. im not the smartest sue me
lovedddd all of the music in this book. i feel like the prequel books have really laid it on thick how important music is to .. everything and i love that so much as an (amateur) (yes ive been doing it my whole life yes i suck ass) musician and longtime sound enjoyer .. i love "the old therebefore" so so much its prolly one of my favorite hunger games songs and im super happy we got it here even if it was a sad scene
need someone smarter than me to think about the scene where haymitch and maysilee are sitting in the katniss plant and saying smth like "one of us has to win" or smth along those lines idk because the presence of katniss there CANNOT be random or for no reason ... it cant just be a mention for the sake of mentioning it it HAS to be important ...........
very sad we didnt get lesbian/sapphic maysilee. very sad day for us all. rest in peace maysilee donner you wouldve loved chappell roan and regina george. very happy we got a confirmed queer character in this series though (shoutout clerk carmine)
it has to be some kind of vile little thing that lenore dove died to a donner candy .... someone please it HAS TO BE
ok bye
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